Melody (:

2010-07-04T00:37:00.000+08:00

Alright deleted the previous post.

Have set up a new blog. Get the link from me if you want it. Cause I don't wanna publicise it, like seriously. YES.

Will keep this current one though, so things won't go missing and stuff ♥

2010-06-21T21:31:00.003+08:00

Time to give up, my dear Melody Sim.

Spam projects, and nothing else.
That is all I can think of. Also, time to learn to control the warm droplets of water that roll down my cheeks usually. Worst come to worst, pooh shall be wet again. Yes, without anyone knowing, again.

I feel like spamming all that are in my brain into this blog post. But I can't. and I don't have the courage to.
I find myself damn useless. Perhaps I should just sit and reflect.

Just feel like giving up; I'm feeling damn awful.

I shall just surrender to fate and be your little doll once again.

2010-06-13T00:12:00.003+08:00

Am I wrong to put you as the limelight of my life?

Slept at 4plus AM yesterday, waking up at 9plus AM again, and now I'm not sure what time I'll sleep and wake up later on again.

Waiting for dear to text me while doing tto field trip and uploading pictures at the same time. Yes I'm extremely tired, with aches all over and eyes closing soon. Yet? Argh.

Frustrated. But there's nothing I can do. Fuck.

"Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option"
It has happened already, just that I've never been willing to face up the truth.

2010-06-11T01:01:00.002+08:00

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2010-06-09T01:44:00.003+08:00

Almost 2am and I'm not sleeping yet. Yes have been losing sleep for a particular reason but more added on to it tonight. And I don't feel well; gastric worked up, frequent headaches and bad flu is seriously killing me. I'm going to die of exhausation, really soon.

Will I ever be the limelight of your life?

p.s. replying tags on tagboard unless too many tags, which usually don't happen.

2010-06-04T23:00:00.002+08:00

What is love?
The dictionary tells me love is a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person;
then I googled the word, wiki tells me love is any of a number of emotions related to a sense of strong affection and attachment (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love).

Still, it doesn't tell me what it is. I'm in a state of confusion.

Went out in the late noon to search for books, while waiting for dear to end work, then dinner.

Sometimes I don't know what or how I should react to certain things, especially after we had a quarrel. Sometimes I just feel that I should act like how any other girls would, just being wilful and not understand a single thing and how I just want my way through everything.
However, at the thought of this, the angel in me tells me I should be understanding to everything and whatever you do and to just give in to all that you say or do. But doing this makes me unhappy.

And this can keep my mind occupied up to days. Especially when you're not around.

Perhaps you didn't realised. My eyes were on you throughout the whole dinner. Yes I seem dumb doing that. I was upset about you not even speaking a single word, not even knowing someone was staring at you stupidly. Then one question pop out, "When will it be the next time this will happen again?"

However, when we're on board the bus, I knew the reason to it ...

Despite being tired after a long day, despite without the need to even spend some time with me for dinner after work when you usually go back straight, you came to meet me without complaints, today, just to make up for tomorrow's blown off date. Yes despite the fact that it is because of the blown off date that you met me today, but still, I appreciate it.

The devil within me tells me not to think much about it as it is just something you're doing to appease me. Yet the angel tells me that at least you took the little effort to do it. So now, what should I do? Who should I believe in?

It is the first time I'm blogging to openly about you. I've thought about it, its selfish of me to keep what I think to myself and not let you know when I expect you to do something. Its selfish of me to keep thinking about what I think without even consulting about what you think. You may say I didn't do that, but still, its something that repeatedly came across my mind when I reflected on myself the other day.

Its time for me to change;
and its time for me to grow up a little more for the sake of you.

I love you dear ♥

2010-06-01T22:08:00.002+08:00

See our super cui faces? Its all swimming's fault, HAHAHAH :D

Its been long since I last went into a pool, and its even longer since the last time I even exercise! And yes, swimming for a little while makes me feel super tired. Plus swimming in the morning is worst, you'll feel dead by late noon. Ok, I'm weak :X But it feels good though (Y)
Yellowhouseboy, let's go for swimming again kay! (:

Ok gonna get my butt moving this june. I hope :P

Tomorrow's accounting paper. And I've studied for four days straight for this one hour paper tomorrow, which consist of only two questions. But well, at least I've tried my best to study :D

Well I think my eyes are shutting reallllllll soon! Ok Joshua better call earlier. I'm dying of exhaustation! :P

And YEAH! I'm gonna work for F1. Luckily Joshua changed his mind suddenly! (:

Mark: Well, difficult. But I'll try. Thanks :D
Vinni: (Y) You too kay! (:
Steph: Sure Sure! Will link you :D See you tomorrow and all the best for accounting! (:

2010-05-26T23:23:00.000+08:00

关心我多一点点，有那么难吗？！？！

2010-05-19T21:19:00.002+08:00

Just realised I've not been blogging for quite some time. Yes, didn't even realise my blog is so dead.

Haven't been having a good life, or rather I've never been. Packed with school stuff and etc like crazy, and I guess I just screwed up my health recently. Four/Five times to the doctor this month, donating to the doctors and I guess they are super rich now. And it has come to a point where I'm defer to the hospital for scanning. Oh well, I don't know what's happening as well. So don't ask.

Completed SSM quiz. Having BESE test tomorrow and SSM on friday. Hope all turns out fine. Yes, I'm super worried.

Luckily I'm ending school a lit earlier tomorrow. Have tons of things to do tomorrow. Or else I'll seriously die of exhausation one day, like soonnnnnnnnnn. And I seriously admit I went to the wrong place, made the wrong choice.

Time for me to go back to study. Will be back soon, I hope.

dearie i don't know when you'll read this. but anyway, try to get some rest tonight kay. know you had a long day already. just remember that your baby will always be here for you kay. love you! ♥

Mark: Difficult. Looking at the amount of things I have to do, you'll faint.
Nic: Yupyup! Meet up real soonnnnnnnnnnn!

2010-05-08T23:22:00.003+08:00

Yes I'm dead beat tired. Especially when I'm unwell, yes again, with salon pas all over just because you're having aches all over. Like WOW, how can someone like this still survive a whole day?! and yes, I did.

And I make it a point to stay up later cause of some reasons, no matter how tired or how sick I am. Just because I know how important interaction is; and that how important I placed you in my life. But still, one word kills them all.

I don't and I'm not putting the blame on anyone, except myself. I only have myself to blame.

I wished I was more selfish; but I can't.

What can I say? I know where I stand, I know how much I weigh.
Melody Sim, just keep whatever shit to yourself and shut up.

Racer: But its a waste of my first year if I were to change course now. So yup, no choice.
Mark: LOL hahahah. Mine was one of the longer introductions in class! Quite a few people question me :X

2010-05-02T22:43:00.003+08:00

Introduce yourself and state an interesting fact about yourself.
"Good morning. I'm Melody and actually, I didn't wanted Hospitality."
"Oh. Then what do you want to do in the future?"
"I want to open a childcare centre."
(questions from my classmates)
"Alright. So did you find any passion for hospitality?"
"Nope. More of studying for the sake of studying."
"Ok. Hope you can find your passion along the way! (:"

LOL. Funny conversation right! It was between me and my BESE tutor. Like what the. But I revealed my deep down secrets, of not really having the passion for HTM. Aww ):

Nic: LOL. I have been anyway :D
Amanda: Thank you! ;D
Mark: Thank you! Hahahah, I am at that time though.

2010-04-23T22:44:00.002+08:00

Super lazy to blog cause sch started on the 19th; and I seriously dread school.
And suddenly, due to some reasons, I just feel like giving up.
I know it dumb and idiotic; stupid and moron,
but still, I just don't have the courage to continue it all of a sudden.
It was my only (: day on the 22nd, but it did not last long.
Indeed, meeting my darlings on 21st was great;
(: to see them, but ): for certain things.
What to do? Life's like this.
I can't complain isn't it? Can I mention a single shit?
All I can do is just shut up and listen.
SSM today and I'm dead, extremely tired.
And if this is what I got to go through, I seriously hate friday.
Not referring to SSM though.

2010-04-17T23:40:00.004+08:00

Decided to take some time off to blog a lit before continuing with my reflective journal. I'm seriously a hardworking girl. Did my work in the noon and stopped myself from being distracted. I'm proud of that! :D

And I know people whom I want to warn may not read this, or probably will never read this but still, I want to mention it up here. NEVER EVER bully or even think of bullying my kids or rather, all my darlings in PHSS library. And I seriously mean business here. NEVER. They work like shit, going mad with all the matters ranging from small to big, and who do you think you are to give them your shitty comments? And if you are going to change MY rules in MY programme, TALK TO ME and not change them behind your EXCOs. Don't you ever dare to change MY things. And please pray hard that you will not see me. Or else, don't blame me for reprimanding you in front of all your seniors and juniors. And let me emphasise this, I value my darlings more than anything, anyone else. You better know where you stand!
p.s. my darlings refer to all my 2009/2010 EXCOs in library - Vinni, Angeline, JunWei, Sylvia, Jocelyn, Apple, Charmaine Tan and Charmaine Leow. (not in any order)

And to my darlings above mentioned, don't ever worry about anything that crop up alright? Remember Russell mentioned that I'm like the mother of library? I will and am always be. So if there's anything you are confused about, just remember that I will always be there for you, to be your consultant for free no matter what it is. Just feel free to come to me with regards to any problem if there's any.

I really feel sad for my darling who have just come across with that matter which just happened recently. However, what saddens me is not you not knowing how to fight for yourself but is that you didn't come to me when you met that problem. Its alright my dear, me, together with the EXCO and teachers, we all recognises your effort. Feel free to come to me alright? I will help you my dear.

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Back to myself, sometimes I wonder if its right of me to just give up? I mean, if you can cope better with me giving up then yes, I will and I don't mind. This time round, I'm really being serious, I don't want to be your burden.

I will and am going to change, or rather, grow up.

dear like i told you as always and just now, i don't want to be your burden. you may say you forced me to grow, yes, probably thats the truth but still, i don't mind growing for the sake of you. like always, i am and will be willing to do whatever it takes to just make you happy. i have been trying my best to upgrade myself in terms of grades and whatever i can think of to make sure that i am able to catch up your pace. but anyway, i just want you to know that, no matter what you do, no matter how much quality time we have together, i always love you ♥

2010-04-14T23:29:00.002+08:00

Cupcakes from LingNa & SingYun. NICE RIGHTTTTTT~
I'm seriously touched, but I didn't cry, which they were expecting though. Love you girls to the max!!!! ♥♥♥

Went RWS and watched MY commercial for RuYi. Which is cool! I'm on TV, but RuYi's tv. But still :D:D:D

Will be going back to sch for orientation registration, early in the morning! Oh well. Will be getting timetable tomorrow anyway so yup.

Just remembered I've not completed my reflective journal! Ok shall do it tomorrow~

Vinni: Alright thanks dear!
Racer: I had this additional module I took last two weeks and yup, now waiting for sch to start.
Sortie: Hahahah somehow. But well, nothing to blog anyway.
WeiFeng: Thanks bro :D

dearie thanks for accompanying me around today. seriously enjoyed myself today after so long of not going out with you. and do take care of yourself during this period when i'm not seeing you kay. love you lots. and i miss you, i really do.

2010-04-04T20:56:00.001+08:00

I see my blog posts getting shorter as time goes by! My god! Just too lazy to blog I suppose :P

Moving into Temasek Green again tomorrow morning, and will only be back on Saturday. So yup. Good and bad at the same time. Oh well. I'll bring pooh there anyway (: Pooh Pooh let's go for holiday again! (:

Alright. Should revise for tomorrow's test again. Bye :D

2010-04-02T23:10:00.002+08:00

What's the point of coming home after living in the hostel after four days when you know everyone got their own plans and you will still be abandon and left alone? If given the choice, I think I would rather not come back if I know these gonna happen. But still, I know I OUGHT to understand, OUGHT to be understanding, and OUGHT to predict these gonna happen since it is not my first time being abandoned. I OUGHT to get used to it.

YES Melody Sim: You are once again abandoned and left alone, AGAIN. So please drill this into your head and never forget it. No point being afraid of being left alone. You HAVE BEEN alone and you know how "easy" it is to depend on yourself. Just shut up and wipe your tears. No one's gonna wipe it for you.

2010-03-28T22:06:00.002+08:00

Last night at home already and will only be back on Thurs since I'm moving into Temasek Green tomorrow morning. Ought to be strong now. Day was peaceful except some unfairness shit that happened at home but I was really happy that you've got a break tomorrow. Not because I needed free labour but because you initiate to meet me at both timings. And now at this point in time where I should sleep really soon some shit just happened. But what can I do? I can't possibly don't let you go and make you stay isn't it?

I'm really tired, eyes are swollen and runny tap nose.
I just feel like escaping.

2010-03-26T23:30:00.002+08:00

Had the trial run for Trans, not that bad actually. Had a look at the apartments too. Alright, not bad too.

But one thing, I still dislike Trans. Not the subject itself, but the start of Trans is so early. Not because it eats up my holiday, but it eats up my working time which is money, and it eats up to another thing, but its something I can't say it out. And I'm seriously very very sad about it )': to the extent that I even cried. Shit. Not a good sign.

I'm seriously tired, like dead beat tired that I can fall asleep even while standing, but because of this stupid thing in me is bothering me, I can't sleep :S

I don't feel like being a good girl anymore. Cause its seriously tough.

i thought i haven't been writing little messages for you dearest. but i guess i did, looking at my previous posts. but anyway, dearie, i guess you know that your little girlf here is very sensitive and weak in terms of feelings and emotions so yup, i guess you can just don't bother about me crying and all shit. and seriously, i really miss you a lot. i really really do.

2010-03-21T19:52:00.007+08:00

Had four days off including today but it wasn't a rest break, probably except today.

Thursday and Friday was library camp. Alright it was the second time I went back as a senior but cause last year due to Salvo camp, I only went back at night. While this time round was the whole day, throughout the two days, except the fact that I didn't stay over.

It was fun actually, and it was really good to see all of them. They're grown up, like seriously they did. No longer the little girls and boys who don't know how to solve problems etc. Was seriously touched by how I see them trying to stay awake when they didn't slept for the whole night etc. So yup, came back on the first night and wrote little messages to them all.

And all thanks to Mr. Muru's comment during ECG day, Angeline Vinni and JunWei became my kids. And Sylvia wanted to join in as well. So yup. My children list on facebook have been edited. LOL.

Anyway working tomorrow from 7am to 7pm again, so yup, got to sleep early. Last third day of work tomorrow anyway. JIAYOU! ~
And thanks to my lovely juniors who invited us back. I seriously enjoyed myself. Love you all! ♥
ILOVE LIBRARY (:
And finally, pictures shall do the talking.

Nic: Is it? But I like myself with spects :D
Racer: Really? Oh well never mind luh. Prefer myself with spects though.
Ange: HELLO daughter.
Mark: Hahahah, don't worry. Will remain as superwoman no matter what.
Vinni: Hahahah, same here! As well as the camp. :D

dearie don't blame yourself kay. its not your fault for this morning's incident, after all you were tired and yup. i'm fine alright, so don't worry. and, one last thing, i miss you ... ♥

2010-03-12T23:18:00.003+08:00

Went back PHSS for their Educational and Career Day. Times changed, tourism isn't that popular among the kids now. LOL. But anyway, it was great seeing them! (:

My "kids" have all grown up~! Why kids? Cause Mr Muru (my secondary school discipline master) mistook me as one of my junior's mother! How can it be?! DO I SERIOUSLY LOOK THAT OLD? Ok I can't possibly give birth to them! Hello they're like 16 this yr while I'm 18!

Like HELLO everyone! I'm still the young and small and of course cute Melody Sim who will turn 18 in around a month plus. I'm neither a mother of Angeline, nor Vinni nor JunWei. Yes, Please remember that.

Got my results today. Cause I was so gan-chiong while waiting for the SMS notice that I could not sit properly without moving/walking around. I've got sharp buttocks :P So when the text came, I read my results without hesitating. And I improved A LOT! Ok it was because I really score lousy results in 1.1 so this sem's is pretty good, to me. HEYHEY YOU! How you gonna reward me?

Last but not least, I seriously enjoyed today! (: Love PHSS still <3

2010-03-11T00:20:00.003+08:00

Mood is seriously rollercoaster. And, what is rollercoster?

According to dictionary.com, it refers to something that resemble the progress of a ride on a roller coaster in sudden extreme changeableness.

Went for STUMPED and it rained while we were on our way running to our next station. Drenched, soak in both perspire and rain. Then took air-con bus, and back to TAS where there's sun and was warm. Air-con on monorail and Vivo. Tell me how not to fall sick? And I think I caught a cold already. Well who cares.

Lunched @ Marche with ChoonSze, SiPei, Andre, XinYi, NianQi and SiewHwee; while Sze Hui and Alan came when I was about to leave since J came to meet me. Walked around and went Plaza Sing instead. And I seriously wanna go shopping! Haven't been shopping since the start of 2010!

Dinner and back. And I even got leg massage on top of my usual shoulder and back massage, due to the accumulated pains and aches all over. Cool right! Plus I was really stinky due to the combination of perspire and rain earlier on, even after I dried myself and with body spray.

So that was the ups.

Now the downs. Its down all the way till underground. Won't specifically state though, but I guess you can infer from my twitter and fb, since blog isn't my only platform And to be frank, I am still very uncomfortable, and I really mean VERY. I just don't like the idea of it. But what to do? You're who you are and I seriously cannot interfere your life, I'm not in any position to. I am waiting for the chance to, but I don't think you will. Sending you was a hint, but too bad you didn't get it.

All I can do now is just to shut up and make no comments. I SHOULD FEEL CONTENTED AND NOT COMPLAIN/WHINE ANYMORE. Slap me if I did.

Am trying to find way to go out officially cause I don't wanna stay home. No dinner and being treated as transparent/shit. I hate this. F it.

Evelyn: Nah not comfortable staying there anymore.
Passer: Working as a cashier/runner in a fast food outlet in RWS. Btw, who are you?
Nic: HAHAHAH, long long time ago! Oh well, life's just like that and stuff. Alright lemme know kay.

dear don't need feel bad about anything. you did nothing wrong. if you wanna meet her, just go ahead. don't bother about how uncomfortable i am cause its nothing but shit. and other than two apologies, i owe you a, thank you. thanks for coming down today to accompany me and stuff. i really appreciate that. and probably i should treat it as the last day i'll see your name on my personal calendar. and, i'm fine (i hope).

2010-03-08T22:22:00.001+08:00

I S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y M.I.S.S Y.O.U, A L.O.T A L.O.T ... ♥

2010-03-07T11:43:00.002+08:00

Good morning world!

Its about five more minutes before I prepare for work. And like usual, I'm super exhausted. But what to do? Money is not easy to earn and, it is my only way of officially not staying at home without the need to give explanations, since J is on attachment already. So I might as well find something else to do. But anyway, I'm only working till the 25th cause trans is starting on 26th.

Given some thought to certain things ever since some things changed. Like seriously, I should and I must wake up my idea of not wishing nor hoping. And after a week of changes, I realised the truth out of everything, wishes never come true. And the more you wish for it, the higher your hopes, you fall harder. So due to me being afraid of falling, I decided not to wish, neither will I expect anymore.

Ending work at 11pm while I start at 7am tomorrow. F.Y.I. I'm working at Sentosa. I think I should just sleep there right! I think its a better choice and I won't have to rush here and there! Oh well, just hope I survive.

Racer: Nope, its not inconvenient nor stressful. After all, that few little minutes mean a lot to me. So I seriously don't mind going great lengths for it.
Xueshen: Thanks darling! (:
Nic: Thanks! Don't worry, I'm fine now. Trying to ignore everything that make me unhappy.
Eve: Yup, I am doing it now already. Block out all unhappiness.

dear, to you, i may have grown. but seriously, sometimes i don't. at this point in time, i still hide myself in the blanket and cry whenever i miss you. just like what little girls do when they miss their boyfriends late at night, yes i still do that. but what can i do? i can't possibly tell you how much i miss you and to force you to meet me when you can't right? so don't blame yourself alright. you didn't force me to grow, the environment did. all i just want for is for you to dote on me more each day, just like what i told you a day before you start your attachment. and last but not least, i love you ♥

2010-03-05T22:55:00.002+08:00

if it was wrong to bring me to this world, kill me.
if you ever regret bringing me to this world, drive me out.
if you ever think i am an idiot at home, send me to somewhere that i'll never appear in your life.
i have never gotten your trust since young, and for the past almost 18 years, i have been living under a situation where you always perceive that I AM hanging around outside or having fun. how many times have i explained myself? everyone who knows me knew that i don't go out and have fun, or rather i am not even fucking interested in having fun or whatever shit, and where is the place i go to? compass point. tell me, where is the fun part?
and since whatever shit i do is wrong. seriously, find one night and just stab me and let me be dead. so i won't have to put up fucking attitude and going against me every minute, every second.
and if i were a few years older, i will, and i really mean i will, just leave this fucking place where is lacking of something it should always provide - love.

Tags would be replied in the next post.

2010-03-04T22:58:00.002+08:00

Went for work at RWS @ RuYi yesterday. Not as chiong as past few experiences with TLG, but still, tiring. Now I realised how tough it is to work at Mac.

Slept till 1.30pm today, went out at almost 5pm to get my stuffs. Met up with J for dinner and homed again.

Seriously, I was thinking, is it time for me to stop relying on you so much? Cause I know, this is only the beginning; you will be busier day by day and finally there will be a time where you may not even have the time for me. And I can see that happening already. Thought could see you when I work morning shift so I don't mind the fact that I have to drag myself out of the bed at 5am in the morning, for the sake of you, yet it didn't turn out to be expected. Plus, being too relying on you may cause irritation as time goes by. And the first step to this, I should not even let you know that I've cried. For the sake of you, its time for me to be independent.

The accumulated amount of tears I've shed since last week is more than the amount of tears I shed a year ago...

Whatever it is, I'm gonna bury myself with work and nothing else since ... Its time for Melody to grow up, not to be a little girl anymore.

Work starts at 7am tomorrow, meaning I've to be awake by 5am. Off to sleep.

Xueshen: Have been open about it uh! Hahahah. What is the exciting thing? I've not received any mails yet :X
Nic: Not really relax luh. Gonna work like shit.

dearie thanks for giving in to me these few days for meeting me and whatever not. concentrate on your attachment kay. don't need worry and bother about me. i'll stay fine. hope to meet you again, soon. i love you ♥

2010-02-26T23:00:00.002+08:00

Had my best day today. First official date, hahahah. (:

Went lots of places, ok not really but it seem like a lot. After all, one whole day lea! Saw XueShen at Tamp1 though. But well, not like I'm doing something wrong isn't it? Hahahah.

J's attachment going to start three days later, in less than 72hours!!! )': But uh, he'll get to enter RWS! Bring me there someday kk!

And, I realised, despite how I tried to keep my strong front before everyone, there will still be a time where I just break down in front of everyone/anyone else, which is not what a superwoman will do. And it is only around two hours ago that I realised, how fragile I can be. Within the superwoman Melody, it is still a little girl.

And please please never talk to me about sad stuffs, I am damn sensitive right now.

dearie thank you for today - my post-exams activity. thank you for appearing in my life, because that is the best thing that have ever happened to me. thank you for always being there, trying your best to shower all your love for me after you knowing what i always went through at home. thank you for always there to solve whatever problems i met. thank you for being there at times where i couldn't sleep, trying your very best to make me sleep and making yourself stay awake just being afraid of me waking up in the middle of the night due to nightmares again. and thank you for being there to love me, and everything that you have done for me.
to me, you going on attachment is going away for a long long time. after all, up till now that i'm almost 18, no one whom i've been to dear to left me for any reasons. ok well, not that i have people whom i've been dear to in fact. so it is rather the first time that someone in my life who have been lingering around me is going to disappear for such a long time. i know you'll say you'll still find time to meet me and will webcam with me, but it is still a total different thing from what we are right now, isn't it? so yup, pardon for my tears. and it is only now that i realise, in front of you, i'm never a superwoman; because i am, and i will always be the little girl who will always be there for you. I love you my dear! ♥

2010-02-24T23:17:00.002+08:00

Exams are finally over (ok I've got only two papers) but I'm not a least bit happy. Just feel relieved that I don't have to mug and that I can kiss year 1.2 goodbye but the thing is, after mugging for a week, I've got nothing to do at home after coming home today and I feel super bored. Which is bad. Cause I felt myself rotting just now, till I went to trim my nails. Like wow! Cause I don't do that usually. And actually short nails ain't that bad either.
And I seriously feel damn guilty right now. First, I said something which I hated all along due to anger. But there's only myself to blame in fact. All I can blame is myself and only myself. Second, I did something which might injure myself but luckily it did not. And lastly, I'm forced to changed plans due to some idiotic reasons at home and I'm super sorry about it. To whoever you know you are, I'm so so so so so so sorry about it. I know you're looking forward to going out tomorrow but I spoilt your plans so I'm really sorry about it.
And now I'm sacrificing time with my love one for my "love ones". WTH.

2010-02-20T17:53:00.002+08:00

Studying out today was crap. A big unsuccess today. Left a while later after the rest left. No mood to study and shit happened. Argh whatever. I don't feel like saying. After all, its not the first time I cried anyway. No one bothers.

Feel damn sick after alighting bus, giddy and seriously felt like vomiting. The feeling was uh, disgusting. Moreover knocked my already injured knee on the chair. But well, who cares. I'm not gonna give a damn about it.

I'm not angry with you. I just hate myself for being affected so easily, for being so bothered about what you say or did, for placing you as my top priority when you didn't and never will, and for the failure of not having any expectations on you. For once, I gave up on thinking - I'm seriously too sick to think about anything.

The only thing I'm left with is to bury myself with books - mug hard and stuck my brain with notes.

Sleep for all I care, I don't give a damn anymore.

2010-02-17T22:18:00.003+08:00

Days are spent doing nothing else but mugging alone. But never mind, in less than a week's time, I'll be free from exams and will be enjoying my holidays! (:

And I'm seriously gonna enjoy and sleep my hols away like nobody's business as I'll be tied with trans for two weeks and SL camp before sch starts. Plus Week zero will be taken depending on the number of days for orientation. Ahhh shouldn't have took part in so many things!! But at least I won't have to move in for trans on my birthday if I took the April sem's.

Alright my aim tonight is to sleep by 1130. Will wake up early for studying, or rather mugging tomorrow. (:

dear thanks for accompanying me the past two days alright. i seriously appreciate it. love you ♥

2010-02-14T00:46:00.002+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year! (:

Spent noon doing nothing else but housework, then dinner while tv while housework at night. So yup I'm here after completing all the housework and stuff. Should be sleeping or studying now but I don't feel like doing any. Hidden reason though.

Many know that I'm alone at home since Friday and will be spending CNY countdown alone. so yup, but I wanna thank LingNa and her mum specially here, cause she called me to go over her place for reunion dinner just now. I rejected anyway, don't feel like disturbing plus I've got to complete my housework anyway. In any case, still Thank you and love you lots! ♥

Spent both countdown to 2010 and countdown to CNY alone. Like woo, Lol.

Actually don't really find myself spending CNY alone although thats the fact, cause my two little kiddos accompanied me to watch tv and they watch me while I did housework. No one to talk to except when I answer phone call, so yup I talked to them (: Loveeeeeeeee them!!

Alright shall end here with love. Happy Valentine's to all ♥

expectation brings about disappointment, if you don't even expect, you won't be disappointed even if it does not happen. and if it happens, its just that you're lucky and take it as a surprise then.
was waiting for your initiative, but it did not happen. sad, but not disappointed - because i know, it won't happened unless i asked for it. but i still know, even if i asked for it, it may not happen. so i choose to be sad, rather than disappointed.

Racer: Ahhh I've tried taking care but well, some things can't be forced. Don't worry I'm fine. And V day was on the 12th for me cause it clashes with CNY.
Amanda: Oh, nope. My TNS is durin March.
LLLN: Hahahah okok. I know. Remember to update me uh!

2010-02-12T23:42:00.002+08:00

Picture speaks a thousand words (:

I just wanna say, its my best V day ever. ♥

dear i've said whatever i wanted to in the email, but i still wanna say someone here - i love you ♥

2010-02-11T22:44:00.002+08:00

I'm practically injured everywhere right now. Yes, everywhere.

Left knee have been in pain like a week ago, and now my right leg don't feel good. Adding on to that, my shoulders and back are aching due to overweight bags last few days.

See, how to survive for tomorrow's role play when I have to be in heels and stuff? Ahh I just hope I'll survive.

And tummy haven't been feeling well recently cause I get tummy aches quite often now. Like more than 10times today already! ):

Melody cannot fall sick! I've still got to study over the weekends and next week! Ahhhh!

Alright shall sleep. I'm waking up super early, like 6am, though class is at 11am tomorrow, to do some stuffs. Night (:

Mark: Hahahah, Compass.
Mingfu: Um you've not told me who are you.
LLLN: Hahahah yupyup purposly one ma. Scared you zhong se qing you.
Nic: Melody have got to learn to face every frown with a smile. Don't worry I'm fine, but got to catch up soon!
Racer: LOL. Don't even know who is it.

dear one more paper and you'll be freed kay. jiayou jiayou! see you tomorrow my dear. don't faint when you get your surprise kay, love you! ♥♥

2010-02-09T23:42:00.002+08:00

When there's no one to talk to, or rather there is but because I'm the kind who don't really open up my deepest inner self to people and I seriously don't know how to tell you about how I feel, I choose to vent anger on myself, to cry and breakdown quietly...

I just hate myself for not having the courage to tell you what I think.

越是爱你，越是在乎你，就越不敢告诉你我的想法;
就只因为害怕你不开心。。。

2010-02-08T22:48:00.002+08:00

Decided to blog, for no particular reason though. Actually have la, just that I don't feel like saying.

Dinner with LingNa at Compass after so long. Next time must dinner more often kk!! (:

The Icing Room is opened! And the cakes are super beautiful! ♥ Don't know if it taste nice, gonna try it some day! *Lingna remember ahhhh!!*

GTT test is over, so I'm like practically free from everything, with the exceptions of two final papers and interview role play. So meaning I can start my end-sem revision! (:

Shall be off. I feel sudden giddiness.

Racer: Hahahah, its yellow. Maybe cause of the sunlight I think. and ya, thanks (:
Mingfu: Who are you by the way?
Kelvin: Hahahah I also don't know why sia. Not photoshop definately!

dearie don't be bothered about what i posted k. the reason for not telling you straight is cause i don't wanna affect you, not now, never. seriously, i feel damn guilty right now. and, i'm really sorry for the very cold good night message cause, if ever you notice my fb or twit you'll know that i've got no mood, like now. but no matter what, i love you ♥

2010-02-07T23:13:00.003+08:00

its always someone else who will ask about what has happened/if i'm alright from my msn pm/blog/fb/twitter/whatever other sources i have, never you. or perhaps, i should take it that you're just too busy to notice how i feel.

melody should stop dreaming and hoping - it sucks to have everything crashed, instantly.

don't ask me what has happened, i don't feel like speaking..

2010-02-03T22:51:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow marks my last presentation - BCS! Finally! Follow by test on Friday and Saturday, another one on Monday, Interview Role Play next Friday and it will be end sem examinations! And my lovely holidays will be here once again.

Spent time studying for BCS @ Rivervale Plaza with J after lunch. Finally I spent time sitting down studying without distractions.

Still down with a bad flu ): Extremely sick right now :S

Shan't stay here for too long; since I planned to sleep early and spend my break time tomorrow to continue studying. Alright shall be off.

Don't let me know if its not confirmed; I cannot take false hopes.
I'm not as strong as you think I am.

Mark: Hahahah, I can keep my school Japan trip itinerary then you can use it to plan!
Racer: Hahahah, true! Its made of gold! &I didn't drug myself to sleep. Cause I'm still sick and my flu med cause drowsiness and when I need to stay up, I always drag till the time before I sleep then I'll take the pill. So if I take the pill early, I'll turn in early.
Nic: No money la! Plus I love that pooh too much that I don't want a second one to replace it. But why am I pathetic?

2010-01-30T23:32:00.002+08:00

Showered Pooh, like finally (:

And now he is in a pathetic state -

But anyway, he'll be clean and nice smelling soon!

The week have been draining and stressful and I think my life have been shorten, again! Same thing kept repeating - projects presentations projects presentations projects presentations projects presentations projects presentations projects presentations projects presentations projects presentations and finally projects presentations.

Had like 3 presentations at one go the past week, consecutive days somemore! And now I'm only left with one presentation, two submissions, three tests and one role play. Kill me, seriously. Which will then be exams.

Hope I'll survive till then!

Am sick again, down with a bad flu. Like always so nothing much in fact. Back ache, neck ache, wrist ache and headache is killing me right now. Please let nothing be my barrier in completing things man, I'll seriously die :S

Seems like I've lots of complain. But yea, lead my life and you'll know how bad it is. Despite there are good times though.

And spending CNY alone may not be bad thing though. At least I get some time off for myself - to do some packing up and chilling a lit before the examinations.

Alright should start doing stuff and some mugging, if my puny brain can take it. And I think I need motivation and encouragement to study. No confidence at all! )':

Should I take medication now to make myelf sleep early??

Alan: LOL. I didn't in the end!
Jasper: Its alright, (:
Mark: HAHAHAH, wait till next time la.
Lingna: You sure? You wanna be say someone's name out here?
WeeTing: LOL cannot la. CNY lea.
Nic: Not going Japan lo, too expensive la. Staying in Singapore instead. And thanks! (:

dearie thanks for your time yesterday and today. it was really great to see you. after all, its you who made me continue holding on, keep on going, and not giving up. don't shake your head, and don't say no. cause its the truth and i seriously thank you for that. i love you ♥

2010-01-25T23:30:00.002+08:00

Taking a little time off to blog (:

Just did some stuff for J and now I've got to move on to micro and pub speak speeches, for tomorrow and wed respectively. But I've got this feeling that I'll just smoke through the presentation tomorrow cause I'm like in a darn lousy condition.

A very bad flu + Dry Throat + Shoulder aches + Back aches!

How to do well tomorrow?! Alright, I think I should think it this way. "If I can do well for Comm Sk Presentation last sem with high fever, why can't I do it this sem for micro tomorrow?"
YES THATS THE WAY! (:

Have told mum I won't be tagging along for Malacca trip during CNY, like finally I've told her despite decided some time ago. So yup, I'VE GOT TO SPEND CNY ALONEEEEE! )':

Alright, less than half an hour to the survey for the overseas trip, which I am gonna stay in Singapore. And I really feel like dying on my bed right this minute - I'm way tooooooooo tired! ):

Should I just smoke for tomorrow's micro presentation and sleep right after survey or should I do a lit preparation first? Ahhhhhhh!

Nic: Not going Japan liao. But I wanna go tooooooooo!
Mark: Sameeeeeeeeee!

dearie don't be guilty for asking me to help you with your project kay? i'm really glad that at least i could lend a helping hand, although i'm not sure if the information is good enough or sufficient. and just let me know if you need help alright. plus i'm seriously sorry for throwing tamtrum at you this morning so i promise i'll try to refrain myself from doing that k. and, now my only and greatest concern is for you to recover asap alright. so don't worry about me and please do all it takes to take good care of yourself. i love you ♥

2010-01-22T22:30:00.002+08:00

Back to blogging after missing for more than a week, been too busy already!

Went sch for this talk on a compulsory overseas trip in June. There is like three destinations for us to choose, mainly - Tokyo, Japan; Sabah, Malaysia; and Singapore. Seemed like a decision has been made, but at the same time, not.

Why does HTM costs so much? On top of the normal fees that we pay, there's still so many additional costs. A change in course? Or should I regret not going into JC?

Seriously I just feel like tearing and burning the booklet that was given to us today!

I don't feel like speaking after reaching home. At times, I wished I was mute. (no offence to anyone)

And I'm down with a very bad flu, once again -.-

Lingna: YA RIGHT.

dearie happy 2nd! today was great when i knew i was able to see you. cause, that is the greatest thing on earth. i love you ♥

2010-01-13T20:40:00.002+08:00

Bus back alone after class. Found a nice spot to sit other than where I usually sit (:

Blasted music as usual, but instead of the usual reading or playing with phone, I chose to stare out of the window, since there was something bugging in my mind. I realised that its quite nice of make use of the time on bus to think of things which are bugging you, instead of spending time to read. At least your eyes get a chance to relax. Which is good.

Many thoughts ran through my mind and seriously, I find the sudden lost of courage within myself. Which I don't know the reason behind it. Or rather, I should say, I know the reason, but I don't wanna face it. After all, it still boils down to courage.

And guess what's the best thing in a project? You only realised there is a short preview presentation on the day before!! Hahahah, that is the "BEST" thing it can happen on Earth! But anyway, smartie Mel contacted her leader directly and started on whatever that is in for tomorrow! Smart! (: Still, I need motivation. I should stop getting addicted to fb and all, especially youtube!

Alright been so long since I typed such a wordy post, I think (?). So yup gotta continue with my projects and stuff.

Mark: LOL, spammer for what sia?
Xueshen: Hahahah same! I ended up doing my proj and work and haven't iron them yet! ):
Nic: YALA! Thats what we're trying to do. Suan her like mad then wait till THAT HERO to rescue her. HAHAHAH.

dearie i know you've no motivation to do stuff now but don't worry kay. that is pretty normal, the important thing is, don't give up. as long as you don't give up, nothing will be the barrier for you to complete your stuffs kay. trust me, you'll do fine. and, to answer your question on msn, not that i don't want to share it with you but i don't know how to. i know you are in a bad mood today. the way your text messages are, and the way you talk, it shock me. i don't know how to react to what you say and that was the reason why i take such a long time to reply your texts at times. suddenly, i lost the courage in consulting you in everything, and every problem i met with. probably due to what has happened yesterday, i have been spending the whole day today thinking, i don't think i should tell you things which may make you give in to me, or rather, think for me. i just want you to be happy, thats all i wished for... i love you ♥

2010-01-11T23:24:00.002+08:00

Mum didn't iron my clothes -.- Should I skip socio lect to come back to iron, and continue my stuffs since I've got like lots of it undone? Ahhh I don't know ):

Lessons was alright today, at the very least I wasn't even on the verge on dozing off. Which is a good thing. How I wish I can be like this for every lesson; be it lecture or tutorial. Ok I'll try my very best to get sufficient sleep from now on - NO MORE LATE NIGHTS! (:

Compass for dinner; and saw Sufi Andre and Raenes. Lol. Back home kinda early, and managed to rush through micro and comm sk. (:

Ahhh so should I should I not? Shit. If I can't decide by the time I sleep I'll probably think over it tomorrow.

Mark: Lol also not spammers, they're my friends.
Lingna: See Mark's message? Remind your husband to update his blog luh! And well, husband doesn't mean married. Of course I know you're single, can only get married after 18 can! You can cohabitate what -.-

dearie its really great to see you just now, cause it signifies a great start of the week! and to add on to the greatness, i missed you so much that i hope i could see you, like right now, right this minute. and remember my dream kk! lets see if it will come true, three years later though. but well who knows right! (: alright hope to see you soon again! i love you ♥

2010-01-10T22:44:00.002+08:00

Back to blogging after six days (:

I think I should not have noon/evening naps anymore. Was studying micro last evening and I was too tired after sleeping for only six hours the previous night, so decided to napped. That was at 6.45pm. Wanted to wake up at 7plus to continue studying, but ended up I chose to continue sleeping. Woke up at 2.43am, had medication, but ended up vomiting -.- And only sleeping back aftr one hour.

But anyway, I woke up like 9.30am today. So yup, turning in early is good (: LOL.

And I doubt I've mentioned it here before. I've decided, or rather, promised myself not to spend on clothes this month due to the lack of cash. Which I think it is a smart decision, yet a dumb one! Since there are sales going on, especially with the CNY season nearing. And my heart ache per time when I walk by the malls, and especially so when I see the word "sale". Like ouch! ):

Went out with family, like finally. And mum have confirmed that they're going Malacca during CNY, leaving me not decided yet. Like aw, I don't know.

Anyway Happy Birthday Kelvin! (:

Lingna: He is yours! Stop denying.
Clement: LOL, like you know who we're talking about.
Mark: LOL I guess, one that is not updated though.

i'm missing you a lot a lot, like right now and always. thanks so much for the past week too, it has been great! hope to see you soon my dearest!

2010-01-04T23:03:00.002+08:00

No sch for five days consecutively already and went SK lib to do work. And I realised if I have to do work using com, there must be no internet connection. That is then productive. Ok I think I will switch off wireless if I'm at home while doing work on com, provided if I don't need the net for work. Yes I will do it.

Anyway I still enjoyed my five days "holiday" and I seriously love it. Might be going overseas during CNY and aww, my angpaos all gone ): Plusplus, CNY week is my study week. Which means exams would be the week right after CNY. How to collect angpaos/go on holiday in peace?

Xueshen: I'm not sure either, gotta let my teacher see first.
Nic: Sure! I'll tell her she saw her husband :P

dearie thanks so much for today! for accompanying me, letting me see you and of course, your super nice massage. and to add on to what i said just now, i really love the way you hug me when i lie in your arms. thank you! &love you!

2010-01-03T20:09:00.003+08:00

See the little creature on top of my lappy?

And I seriously think I can never make a good wife in the future. Imagine me forgetting how to make a proper omelette! My goodness, its that bad after not cooking for a year plus.

Ok so my aim is my mum - someone who doesn't know how to cook but is successful in career (:

Alright I'm just crapping - too stress up from work.

Amanda: Happy 2010 too! Take care too! (:

dearie don't worry about me alright! i'll stay fine (: love you!

2010-01-01T23:56:00.002+08:00

First post in the year 2010 (:
Happy New Year to all!

Stayed home the whole day; Sleep Eat and Do work. Thats all I suppose. LOL.

Have been feeling unwell today; diarrhoea improved, didn't have runs that many times, but had a very bad headache just now. Probably due to staring at lappy screen for long hours. And I just checked, no fever anyway. Flu still as bad, especially when it comes to night time ):

And I dislike it when I've got so many kinds of medication to take at one go. Seriously dislike it. I think half of me is make up of medication.

Should I take a break now and continue with work tomorrow? Or should I just bang on work? Aww.

Jasper: Happy New Year! Thank you! Its an additional member of my pooh family! (:
Racer: Yup true but I'm gonna keep by them this year. Happy New Year too!

dearie i wouldn't enjoy 2009 so much if i didn't met you. and thanks for that promise, you made me feel secured, once again. and to cut things short, i miss you... love you!

2009-12-31T23:02:00.005+08:00

58 more minutes to 2010
GoodBye 2009, Hello 2010~

Dug out my 2009 resolutions and realised I've not completed them. Just wrote out my 2010 resolutions, and I swear I'm gonna follow them.

My reflection for 2009.

The year started off with work at Andresen's. From there, I learnt many things. I learnt how to handle difficult customers, how to handle ridiculous requests from customers but yet to still hold my temper and still smile, and most importantly, how difficult it is to earn money.

The hardest thing in the year should be the time when I just entered TP. It was tough to make friends, since I don't talk to strangers. Yet, it is these strangers who made my life wonderful - Choon Sze, Si Pei, Clement, Andre, Alan, Bryan; in fact, the whole 1H07. I started school with the thinking - Die, I'm so gonna be alone for the next 3years. Never did I know that I will make such a great bunch of friends. Especially Choon Sze & Si Pei, they're the greatest friends I made in TP. Thank god I met them! (:

Didn't manage to continue being in Salvo but despite that, seniors and friends I made are great. It was then that I realised, they're not just Hi-Bye friends whom you meet during CCA times but it is when you encounter problems, they will still lend you a helping hand, even after you've left.

It was then another time to experience of making new friends while working for Asri during F1. Despite working like crazy, it was the first time I experienced fun while working. I admit it was a good experience, I learnt how difficult it is to hold trays the whole day and despite the pain and tiredness on your feet, you have to continue working but yet smile and enjoy. Indeed, it was a challenge to me. And it was during the event, that I made a a group of fun and outgoing friends! (:

Events in 2009 made me a newer, stronger and better person. I have learnt, seen what I will not see if I were to choose a different path, experience a life which not everyone have the chance to. am glad, and still thankful that god gave me things after taking away some. Like what others always says, When god closes your door, he will open a window for you. And finally, I realised, losing is not the worst thing to happen on earth.

And to you - Thank you for being there always, to help and stuff. I'm seriously glad I met you. You gave me a new starting point at almost the end of 2009, and lit my days from only school to more. Thank you (:
to scram, seriously. i
Melissa: LOL I'm not surprised btw -.-
Nic: Thank you! Hahahah, and it was a good time criticising her! (:

dearie, once again, thank you for appearing in my life. seriously, i am really really glad to have met you. the kind of thankfulness deep down in my heart cannot be expressed via words. and don't have to thank me for stuff, my job here is to continue loving you and being there for you. like my promise to you on 30th december 2009, 10.21pm, i'll always be there for you when you need me, no matter what, no matter who else objects. and to add on to that promise, i'll love you till the day you ask me to scram, i love you <3

2009-12-31T00:13:00.003+08:00

Supposedly to post before 12am but anyway I'm here. Four great things to share!

1. Got my pub speak results for both impromptu and special occasion speeches! And I got an A! Ok despite being a low A, but still, its my first A in TP! And results shows that my preference - impromptu, is the one I can do better in!
2. Got back my OB mid-sem paper and YESYESYES another A!
3. I bought my little pooh bear! LINGNA & ANDRE - YES the one with pi gu yi li yi li - inside joke! (:
4. BCS tutorial tomorrow morning from 9 to 12 is cancelled! Like WOHOO I got no sch on Thurs and Fri! (:

I think today's damn lucky! Like all I wish it will happen happened! And I thought I was in dreams! But ya I'm awake and alive! Ok but now that both modules score not bad so far, I'm afraid for Micro and Socio and of course the rest.

Anyway either staying home or just going to return books tomorrow since I've got nothing on! (: But except for chores though.

Alright someone turned 18th today. Happy Birthday! (:

ChinHui: Oh its normal just get used to it and it'll be fine, what you working as?
Vinni: Sure my dear! Same to you (:

dearie there's no need to thank me kay. i swore to myself saying i am going to make you happy today and yup i did it right? and no need to apologise for the movie, we had a great day still isn't it? and same thing goes for me, spending time with you is the best thing on earth already! i love you too <3

2009-12-29T22:43:00.003+08:00

Went to see doctor this morning and I queued for 2 hours before I saw the doctor! Was damn tired and was almost falling asleep. Anyway I made it to school alive after that. &Thanks for accompanying to the doctor! (:

Micro tut for only 7 mins and I was like -.- Should have made used of my MC and skipped Micro as well. Anyway I got my articles checked and stuff.

&I've decided to complete all my work on Thurs and Fri. Yup, hopefully.

Reached home around 8plus and I was starving! And yup, I'm super tired now. Seriously shag.

Nic: Cause you're slow la DUH! Shows that you should drop by more often (:

dearie thanks for accompanying me to the doctor. and i'm sorry to spend your whole morning for nothing. but still, thank you! <3

2009-12-26T22:50:00.003+08:00

Mum flew today, for work again. Wanted to send her off, but had diarrhoea the moment I woke up again. And she asked me to stay home.

Diarrhoea three times today already. Hope there's no fourth. Cause had six times in total last night after blogging.

Finally I've watched Singapore Dreaming for Socio, gonna do my part tonight if I can or else will do it tomorrow. And school reopens on Monday -.-

Alan: LOL -.-

thanks my dear. for the medication, for letting me see you, and those words you said online just minutes ago. frankly, your words triggered my tears, but it was cause i was really touched. i guess i better count my lucky stars, to have met you, that is the best thing in life that could happen to me. i love you.

2009-12-25T23:48:00.004+08:00

Merry Christmas! ♥

The day didn't started well, at least for me ):

Had seafood for dinner last night, which was Christmas eve. Didn't ate a lot since I don't really eat seafood. And I had diarrhoea the moment I reach home. And once more just before I slept.

Decided to bfast with family outside this morning so I woke up like 8plus. Had diarrhoea once the moment woke up. A really bad one. Four times in total until now since the day started.

Think I might as well spend my Christmas in toilet ):

Anyway I'm quite done with whatever I have to do. Left with one neglected subject, Sociology. Ok not really neglected but since its not as rush as the rest, I've not done anything to it. I've promised myself to do whatever I have to do before school starts. Which means I'll have to do Sociology by this weekend.

Mum's flying off tomorrow noon, and will only be back on the 1st. Seriously, I don't feel good without mummy around! Ok perhaps I won't come home early after school starts. Even studying in the library is much better. Ok that will be my plan if I've got no plans.

And I got my Lollipop cap already! And got one WANGZI fan! Will take pictures of it soonnnnn~

Is my blog neglected? no tags after days -.-

you never know how much i missed you

2009-12-23T00:18:00.006+08:00

Best day ever (:

Went ECP and Clarke Quay for proj - to take vids. Lunched, shopped around at Central and went Hougang after that.

Its the bestdaybestdaybestday! Like seriously, I have no regrets even if I die now :P

I always have this thinking since young. When something good/someone cared for me, something bad will bound to happen within the next few hours/days. And yup it happened something good last week, then something bad last weekend, and now good. But no matter what is going to happen the next few days, I don't mind cause I had my best day in life already! Yes I'm that easily satisfied (:

Alan: LOL, lame -.-
Racer: Nah nothing much.
Xueshen: Yup don't worry darling! (:
Jingxuan: Sure! (:

dearie. thanks for accompanying me here and there when you could have been staying at home and rest. and of course, for letting me see you after so many days! cause i missed you like crazy! and, thanks for your little surprises today - the necklace, mitten and of course, my lollipop. not forgetting, the special something which made me surprised. thank you so much! it was the first time that i looked at someone for such a long time that my vision went blur, but i really enjoyed it. &it was the first time someone put on a necklace for me - so i will not take it off. &you're the best thing i could ask for as well. i love you~

2009-12-20T20:15:00.002+08:00

什么是家?

在我眼里, 家, 应该是个可以依靠, 一个不管发生什么事, 门都会为你而开, 一个不管风吹雨打, 都会成为你最温暖的避风港...
但对我而言, 是个恶梦, 是个有苦说不出, 是个被瞧不起, 是个最不想呆着的地方...

曾经在很小的时候, 我告诉过自己, 长大后, 我一定要不顾一切的离开这里...
后来上了中学, 曾以为是自己幼稚不懂事, 有一度觉得有家真好... 但, 现在的我, 要坚持当初小时候的第一个梦想 - 不顾一切的离开

几十岁的人了, 这绝对不是叛逆期, 是决心...

我不是个有自信心的人, 是个能因为别人的一句话, 自信心就全垮的人...
也是个能因为别人的一句话, 就会被影响的人... 或许表面看不出, 但心里被影响得乱七八糟...
但不管怎样, 只要是人, 就一定有自尊心...
虽然说, 我是在你又打又骂又被瞧不起的环境成长, 应该已经被你影响得差不多了... 但不知为何, 我还是会很想大声哭出来...

我真的累了...

Stretching rubber band too tight results it to snap.
What's the point of holding it when you know it has been trying to escape? Let it go.

2009-12-19T16:27:00.003+08:00

YES I AM BRAINLESS.

IF GIVEN A CHANCE, I'LL DEFINITELY RUN - RIGHT NOW, RIGHT THIS MINUTE.
F.

2009-12-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

Back to blogging. Ok seems like after some time but not, only a day.

Went doctor for my becoming from bad to worst skin, and yup, everything is due to inflammation. And I've to be on medication and to apply some cream. No late nights anymore! ):

And I've gotten used to my bangs, like yup. (: Although I still prefer my previous fringe!

Alright. Someone's at camp now. Ok I gonna sleep, Good Night all! (:

WeeTing: Don't want luh, not very nice actually.

dearie go ahead and enjoy your camp alright? probably this is a lit too late but don't worry about me alright? i'll stay and be fine. miss you <3

2009-12-18T01:34:00.003+08:00

CUT BANGS ALREADY!

Ok that is all over my twitter and fb. And yup, plus I've shorten my hair, like almost 4 inch! Been whining the whole day already cause I'm not used to bangs (although I've cut it before) plus my hair is so short now! Ok not really but its A LOT to me luh!

Will find a way to manage my hair so I won't look weird.

Anyway, I've somehow gotten used already! A little :P

Racer: I've cut already anyway.
Kelvin: Yup, cut it already! And yup, it WILL grow back (:

dearie, thanks for the comforts today. don't worry about me kay? i'm pretty alright now. just need some time to get used. love youuu <3

2009-12-15T23:35:00.004+08:00

Should I cut bangs? Should I cut bangs? Should I cut bangs? Should I cut bangs? Should I cut bangs?

Ok I really don't know thats why I'm posting it here. Feel like cutting but I'm afraid I'll regret. HOW?!?!?!?!?! And now if I have the mood to go Hougang tomo I'll cut bangs. Or else I'll have to wait till this Fri or weekend or next week.

Supposedly to be doing Go Kart for proj but it turn out to be a wasted trip. Lakeside somemore! Wasted time + money! ):

Met up with Ying Jun cause she happened to be at lakeside too! &since she was alone. Went for lunch at PS and shopped around. Saw so many things that I wanted! OMG but since I've declared I'm broke, there is only share to see but not buy )':

Awww. I wanna go shopping!

Alan: Ya I know.
Nic: FINE -.- Shopping is tempting knowww.

my dear, ~~remember your promise to me alright~~? i really dislike it when you keep everything to yourself and don't wanna let me know if you're upset or frustrated just because you don't want me to worry. frankly, this will make me worry even more, which may lead to me, feeling frustrated. i really hate it when someone lie to me - no matter what.
i knew i sound as if i can interrogating you, and i'm seriously sorry about it. i knew i was wrong when i did it, cause i know i have no right to interfere your stuff, but i really want to share your bruden...
i'm sorry my dear, and i love you <3

2009-12-12T22:16:00.002+08:00

Mum flew to Brunei yesterday while Dad and Sis went Malacca this morning. And Grandma went Aunt's place to stay. So yup, I'm left all alone. Anyway, Dad and Sis should be coming back tonight.

Went AMK Hub to search for stuffs, lunched and back home. Ok not my stuffs though. Ok at least my eyes went shopping, LOL.

Should be staying home tomorrow as well since Mum will only be back on Monday. Plus I'm not to type who goes out with my Dad and Sis. So yup.

Have been watching youtube till morning and I think I should whack this stupid habit/addiction of mine cause my skin condition is seriously getting from bad to worst ): Should make myself sleep earlier from day to day.

I realised I'm officially broke. Ok was broke since some time ago, but this time round I meant business. One reason, my phone bill came already! ): I guess I've to make my own sandwiches from now on until I get my Jan allowance. Or else I'll just survive on air.

Anyway I think I should start with my serious stuffs, as in like projects and some studying preferably. I hope.

And LOLLIPOP is having their concert in Guangzhou tonight! Hope its successful and I'm seriously waiting for them to come Singapore. Though I heard Singapore is the 7th stop, but their only at their 2nd stop now!
Ahhhhh come Singapore please! :/

Joshua: Yupyup, I stripped Pooh. You knew what I meant already anyway (:
Racer: Ya I won't liaoooo :X

Thanks my dear, for all you did today.
Lunch and coming over plus dinner. You made my day by accompanying and being there with me the whole day. &thanks for that peck, though it really shock me.
loveyouloveyouloveyouloveyouloveyouloveyou! <3

2009-12-10T22:59:00.002+08:00

Alright back to blogging after ~~three~~ ~~four~~ five ~~six~~ days.

I'm officially on hols since 6pm yesterday. Went Tamp1 for dinner with Lingna and went shopping. Ahhh I went shopping again! Yes, spent money. Got myself a dress and shawl. Same colour and design for both with Lingna, LOL. But the dress was really gorgeous!

And now I'm super broke! Yes, SUPER. I think I'll survive on water and air from now on. Please refrain me from spending! ):

Home today to settle project stuffs. And I received Asri's text asking if we wanna work this hols. Been thinking over it, and I think I won't work. Despite being super broke, I think its better to spend more time on my proj and stuffs.

Anyway I have my own room now! Ok not really cause its practically just moving my bed over to study room. But at least I'm sleeping alone now! (:

Alan: Yup, 25bucks for 1000pieces.
Jasper: 16blocks was alright, I cleared about 20blocks the next day at toa payoh!
Lingna: Yupyup! Was a good exercise though.
Xueshen: Yup I know, now. Won't do it anymore :P

Thanks for accompanying me to study on Tuesday, plus breakfast and dinner.
And after not seeing you for few days, I really miss you.
Wait till your hols is here then we go out kayyyyy!
I miss you, I really do <3

2009-12-05T00:53:00.002+08:00

Perhaps I should use to time to sleep instead of blogging, but sis ain't back yet. So I'm thinking of waiting for her.

Anyway, I think my choice of job is really from bad to worst!

First was ice cream for aound 5 months. Which the pay is super low, but yet super slack during work that I was really bored to tears!
Next was restaurant and banquet for a day. Which I think F&B is really dirty cause you'll have to clear tables and its damn disgusting, esp the way people eat!
Followed by F1. Which was damn tiring and my leg was on the verge of breaking. Although this is the one I enjoyed most (:
Then it was giving out flyers for a travel agency. Despite being tired cause the flyers were damn heavy and there wasn't break time except lunch & dinner, and I've got to bear with the cold eyes of the people there. Yet I find it alright cause the pay was reasonable with the amount of work and there was YAMI YOGURT after work! <3
And it was events outside (RWS and APEC). Which is about the same as F1, but not as tiring. And since it was still under Asri, it was fun anyway.
And now, its today's - giving out flyers on door-to-door basis. Which is super saikang! Worst than all of the above and have all the negative points of above! Except the part on dirty for F&B cause its flyers. Super low pay + Got to walk/run in the rain and the worst was, to be scared by dogs!

Yes I was in such a pathetic state! Perspiring, yet drenched in rain. Imagine how smelly I was! And to add on to that, my hair was in a mess and makeup was smudge. Imagine taking 3000 pieces of flyers in the bag and another 1000 in arms and walk down blocks after blocks, in the rain somemore!

I think I'll rather scoop ice cream, or even working fo Asri, or giving out flyers for travel agency.
Today's the worst, and I'm seriously not going to take up such jobs. Yes, read this - NEVER.

And now my shoulder is aching like nobody's business and my left wrist is hurting again. And legs are damn tired due to the non-stop walking.

Yet there is nothing positive about the job. Ok probably only one point, and that is, I can lose weight super fast. Cause I covered like 16 blocks in total. And they are all separate into different locations, but all in potong pasir though. And I think I've walked the whole PTPS area, like seriously! Imagine we're doing Toa Payoh tomorrow!

Anyway, I really wanna thank Joshua. For coming down and carrying the 3k pieces of flyers. I know how heavy it was after carrying for hours. And walking up and down with me just now, and not forgetting helping me from time to time. Really, a big thank you to you!

And my timetable is left with,
Micro on 7 Dec and OB on 9 Dec (:

Nic: Yupyup can! Jio me out luh! (:

To my dearest boyf. I seriously thank you for today. Like I said, I don't know how to express my gratitude to you cause you've been the only one who cared so much. I really feel so lucky that I've met you. And don't worry about me tomorrow alright, I'll be fine. Love you! <3

2009-11-30T23:57:00.002+08:00

Crashed Micro lect and planning to skip pub speak lect this week. So it meant that I'll end at 1pm on Monday, which meant more time for studying! YAYNESS (:

Now that GeogTravelTM test is down, I'm left with,
Tuesday: Sociology test
Wednesday: Pub Speak Special Occasion Speech
Thursday: Excel Online Test
Friday: Submission for Comm Sk Job Search Documents
Following by will be mid-sem test. Micro on 7 Dec and OB on 9 Dec.

Ok I'm counting down to deleting the stuffs up there. Planning to finish up Comm Sk Job Search Documents by tomorrow, or latest Wednesday so at least I can submit latest by Thursday so I won't have to go school on Friday! (:

Ok I think I shall sleep now, right after this post or else I'll definitely doze off during Socio test tomorrow. Good Night All! (:

Racer: No enjoy. But did sleep well for the first two days though. LOL.

And to you who is still doing projects, turn in early and have a good rest alright! (:
Thanks for the peck just now, it was really sweet <3

2009-11-27T19:26:00.002+08:00

Wanted to blog last night but I was really too tired that I slept even without twitting (I think).

Coming to a week of not blogging. Reason being too tired, been bombarded with projects and stuff and of course the main reason is, laziness. Ok i'm guilty of it.

Next week will be worst, with so many tests coming. And I don't understand why people can still enjoy. Seriously.

Monday: GeogTravelTM test
Tuesday: Sociology test
Wednesday: Pub Speak Special Occasion Speech
Thursday: Excel Online Test
Friday: Submission for Comm Sk Job Search Documents
Following by will be mid-sem test. Micro on 7 Dec and OB on 9 Dec.

Kill me, seriously. Tell me how to survive with this great week to look forward to. Seriously too stressed up, and pimples are popping out ):

Ok but I know I will survive. Main aim this coming week is to have enough sleep. Yes I will (I hope).

Anyway I think my mum is damn pro! Ok this i super random and out of place for this post but I promised that I'll blog about her. She called up sony and somehow argued with them that there shouldn't be a need for me to wait a month for the speaker problem. That was on Wed. And they called me this morning saying my phone is ready for collection. LOL hahahah damn funny when I told my mum that. Her reaction was superb man! And now I seriously think I should start to learn the way she talk cause you'll never be able to win her in an argument. Ok of course unless you're a super good speaker. LOL.

Anyway, THANKS MUMMY I LOVE YOU! <3>

Ok BBQ tomorrow at Jasper's place after collecting my phone. And Meli is flying to Taiwan on Sunday morning. Ahhh I wanna go Taiwan tooooooo~ Yes I'm super jealous of her.

Racer: Cannot la! Cannot heck chores.
WeiFeng: Yupyup have been busy. Been so long since I talk to you toooo! Miss you.
Jasper: Hahahah I am and have been a good girl. I'll take care, you too alright! (:

Thanks my dear for always being there. I seriously enjoyed that night with you, and of course the upcoming times that we will spend together.
Loved it when we watched the stars last night, and I really look forward to watch sun rise and stars in the future with you.
And I just loved it when we're together.
I miss you, I really do.

2009-11-22T22:41:00.003+08:00

RFH this morning. Imagine waking up at 4plus AM and no noon naps and you slept at 2plus AM the day before. Unless you take a 10min sleep on bus ride back home as a noon nap, LOL. Lunched at hougang and did chores till night. Thats my life for today, its that bad.

Ok I've decided to sleep earlier, my skin condition is geting from bad to worse already!

I think I injure my left shoulder, like seriously. Been hurting since two days ago ):

And I've decided to get an alarm clock, like seriously. No doubt about that. I really can't afford to oversleep like last week.

Anyway I've not got any replies on sony eric phone. Aw, no one has it? ):
URGENT!
ANYONE HAS SONY ERICSSON PHONE TO SPARE ME? PREFERBLY ABLE TO INSERT MEMORY CARD.

Wanted to crash OB so that I won't have to go tomorrow but there isn't any slots for me to crash. Ahhhh, shall be good and go to sch tomorrow then.

Alan: But the thing is I have no will for that.
Racer: DUH! Intervals for 163 may be 20minutes at times and I need 3 buses to school, what do you think? And, for my case is, I may not even wake up if someone's shouting in my ear. Thats how bad.

A New Start.
Thanks dear, for letting me sleep on you just now and everything.
Please take care and get well soon alright! I love you too <3

2009-11-20T23:50:00.003+08:00

Decided to blog now before the clock hits 12am, LOL I don't know why too. Hahahah.

Anyway, cooked lunch. YES, cooked. Mark that word, cause I'm seriously proud of it. Ok simple dishes but at least its been some time since I cooked. About 2 months already I think. Hahahah, unless you count cooking maggie noodles as cooking. Then its about one week luh! :P

Went to take pay with Joshua, the one when I worked for flyers. Almost a month already! But anyway, at least I've a lit of income now. Like YESYESYES! I'm super happy but I've promised myself to save up already. So no more unnecessary spendings!

Anyway I feel like finding a part time job, AGAIN. Cause I wanna buy netbook, plus some other things. So as to loosen my pocket a lit, so I have a lit more to spend. But, I'm afraid I won't have time for projects and stuffs. I'm losing my sleep just cause of projects already, can I cope with a part time job? Been thinking for few days, so frustrating! -.- Can't just money fall from the sky?

Alright shall end here but before I forget, I think I better go get one alarm clock tomorrow. Ok, spending money on alarm clock so I won't have the chance to oversleep, I hope.

URGENT!
ANYONE HAS SONY ERICSSON PHONE TO SPARE ME? PREFERBLY ABLE TO INSERT MEMORY CARD.

Racer: Not because of sleeping late or early, it is hard for me to wake up no matter what time I sleep since I'm a deep sleeper.
Alan: CRAZY man! I'm mad if I go out at 7am when school starts at 9am -.-

Thanks dearie for all that you've done/said. Seriously, I can't help but to worry when you're not feeling well so please take care and recover asap alright. Similar to you, I miss you too <3

2009-11-19T23:29:00.003+08:00

I swear I'm going to blog this, because I CANNOT afford to oversleep again! Cause the feeling suck when you woke up at the time when you were supposed to leave the house.

URGENT!
ANYONE HAS SONY ERICSSON PHONE TO SPARE ME? PREFERBLY ABLE TO INSERT MEMORY CARD.

Xueshen: LOL where got normal. You forgot to add ab in front of normal.
Clement: It is a summative test also! Didn't you read? It was written Business Correspondence Summative Test.
amandaSalvo: LOL -.- Hahahah.

2009-11-19T10:44:00.001+08:00

I'm freezing in the lab!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ):

2009-11-16T22:43:00.002+08:00

Wanted to post via lappy but I think I'm too lazy to turn on lappy since I'm using desktop now and its already 1043pm.

Did some studying for Comm Sk2 cause there is summative test on business correspondence tomorrow! Ahhhh I better have enough sleep tonight or else I'll sleep during the test again! I don't want history to repeat man! Ok for those who didn't know, I was dozing off during the very first Comm Sk1 test. Yes, really sleeping away till I didn't know what I was writing about in my expository essay.

Went Simei to send my pretty phone for servicing cause it went haywire. And the best thing was that my previous and the only useable spare phone went haywire last night too! Ahhh so got no choice but to borrow spare phone from Rui Bin. Thanks uh!

Went MHH to collect cab fare after class, ok not mine and headed back home. Doing stuffs till now and I'm super lazy to print stuffs so i think I'll just go lab tomorrow during break.

I think its time for me to spend time at home cause I've been going out everyday without fail for two weeks! Weekdays for school, working for APEC on Sat and had project field trip on Sunday. And there's Run For Hope this coming Sunday. Ok I hope my Sat is available cause I need time to do some studying, as well as to catch up with sleep!

Shall go off soon. Gastric ain't feeling well and I'm having pains in gastric and stomach and probably intestines since the past hour.

Xueshen: LOL hahahah, you asked funny questions the other day. Anyway nice talking to you!
Mark: Ohwell, I've got no comments.
Joshua: LOL, cute uh. Hahahah, update liao laaaaa.

Thanks for the warmth you gave me tonight,
I am really thankful to have met you. I miss you.

2009-11-11T23:27:00.003+08:00

Alright, here to do a proper post. Have been extremely busy the last few days, and that explains my random and short post last night :P

Went East Coast on Sunday and due to the fact that I don't know how to cycle, despite getting a double bike Alan still need to ride me around. Thanks Alan! (: &had steamboat for dinner and it was my first time having steamboat outside other than Seoul Garden.
Did projects/tutorials/pub speak speech preparation on Monday night. From 8pm till 1am plus! And thats like non-stop, not even a toilet break.
Tuesday was a little slack cause I just had to do my own stuffs, not projects though (if I didn't remember wrongly laaaa).
Skipped Pub Speak lect and went Compass after Micro lect today. Bought stuffs for CCN and finally everything's done. Ok at the very least things which we are suppose to buy are bought. And left I'm left with cutting of bread and cooking of hotdogs on Friday.

Done with Micro tutorial in the library while waiting just now. I think I should do this every week, cause I can finish one tutorial in advance! Instead of keeping it till weekends, (:

I'm super broke! Not because I bought stuffs but cause I paid using nets for CCN stuffs. Now I'm broke. Ok meanwhile I can save my money since I'll be getting it back (:

And if I'm still not having enough rest, call me Sleepywoman instead of Superwoman. I'm serious.

Mark: LOL
Alan: Hahahah, I know you do righttt! LOL.

Felt secure when you held on to me, seriously. Yet,
你是否高估了我？I seriously think you do.

2009-11-10T23:19:00.002+08:00

I know you guys miss me!
So here's two group pictures (without Delvina cause she left early!).

Ok I think I've got to go on diet, seriously. I'm growing fatttttt.

Mark: I also never say anything.
Alan: Cannot eat liao, I'm growing fat! How can not go on diet.

2009-11-07T19:47:00.003+08:00

Just done with Comm Sk and stuffs, expect printing. But anyway, shall blog before doing tutorials.

Went IKEA for lunch with Andre, Clement, SiPei, Lingna, Alan, ChoonSze, Amanda. But they left and only Andre, Clement, Lingna and I walk around IKEA. Had lots of fun there, &Pictures are all uploaded on facebook. Went Giant with Andre and Lingna and headed back Compass. Walked around with Andre while waiting. Headed back Koufu for dinner, and Home Sweet Home (:

And something shocking was, I slept at almost 3am last night but manage to wake up at 945am. Like Wow! Ok the reason was because I had too many texts coming in and it seriously woke me up. Went to return books and Aunt got me a top plus socks (:

Did housework and followed by schoolwork. Now, I'm starting to feel sleepy cause I'm super bored. Aw, still got to go East Coast tomorrow for field trip. My bones breaking man!

&I seriously think I should go on diet, been eating too much alreadyyy ):

Xueshen: Nahhh, I don't wanna be fat.
Racer: Nahhh not all the time. I'm still alone at times too. Oh well, school's been busy like crazy. Projects came in on the first week.
Mark: LOL.
Nic: Stop it man! No one sees it and keep it to yourself. And I will never dump it, I'd rather dump you in the rubbish chute.

I wished yesterday didn't ended too,
and I dislike saying Bye to you, I miss you <3

2009-11-04T22:45:00.004+08:00

Wanna know what is the best thing to have during a boring lecture/tutorial?
SOUR PLUMS! (:
It pulled me through during Micro today, at least.

Alright just sharing some tips on how to keeping yourself awake during a boring lesson. Might work for some, and the other way round. (:

Class was alright. Had 3 presentations today -.- Yes 3! But its short ones. Two during Public Speak - One for today's activity on purpose and the other was updates. And last one was during OB tutorial on the answers. LOL. Library also don't have so many can! At most two only. &I was like shivering during my updates presentation! Not cause I was so nervous that I shiver, but cause I was super cold -.-

Went Compass after class. Dinner at BK cause Mac was crowded and we couldn't get a seat. Aw, my monopoly! ): I want play leaaaaa. &who doesn't want the sticker? Give me! (:

I'm thinking of what I have to do right now. CCN day stuffs completed, Draft completed, Minutes printed, Email checked, Comments noted. Is there anymore? I doubt so knowww. Now my brain ain't working, I'm super sleepy :X

I think I should sleep soon. Since I can't think of anything else to do. Good night all! (:

Racer: Being alone for me is normal what isn't it? Oh well, the intervals for 163 is around 15-20minutes. Once I waited for almost 30minutes.
Alan: Have been eating it for 3days liaoooo.
Xueshen: Huh cannot laaaa. I know 能吃是福, but later I grow fat then dieeee :X
Mark: LOL why?
Lingna: Then I will have nothing to hug at night ):

Thanks for today; I miss you too <3

2009-11-02T23:42:00.002+08:00

Hate it, Used to it, Can't live without it.

Ok thats something from Socio in fact, in a story. Um I find it so true though. Well towards some things uh.

Ok big things this time round, not totally though :P Someone snatched my phone today -.- Yea, someone. &also someone peeped at my fb. Two different person though, and I seriously hope that the two of them feel guilty. Hahahah, NOT. Alright forget it. Like I said, its just a matter of time, so yup (:

School was fine just that I was yawning non-stop. Not because lessons were boring but because I was seriously tired. Not been having enough sleep, ok but I'm still here blogging at this time because that is my "leisure" for now, at least.

Bused back and it was super crowded, got a sit though (: And I was freezing while waiting for 163. Seriously freezing! And I waited for almost 20minutes for it! Imagine a pathetic girl who is freezing and carrying books in hand sitting at the bus stop for 20minutes when she's starving (ok not really) and waiting to get home. I was that pathetic. Really dislike waiting for 163 -.-

I think there is a big problem with me! Been eating so much (ok its a lot to me) and sometimes I still feel like eating! How?!?! Am so gonna kill myself if I'm gonna gain weight! Ok shall cut down already, shouldn't eat too much (Like today!).

And I've been craving for Mac since 2 weeks ago! Been sick for the past 2weeks and now I'm recovering! I want Macccccccc~

Racer: Ohhh, cause she didn't teach everyone in Sec 2 unlike Sec 1. Take care too! (:
SiPei: Don't tell you :P Evil girl.
Mark: LOL.
Angeline: Alright my dear, no worries! (: Take care too, Miss you <3>
Nic: Fine -.- Hugging everyday how can it be sparkling clean. Wash for me luh. I don't bear to wash it lea, nothing to hug at night :P

2009-11-01T23:24:00.006+08:00

(: Got umbrella already! Thanks to whoever! :P

Ok nothing much to post in fact, so let pictures do the talking! Yesterday's pictures though, but still :D

Dango from Ajisen! YUMMY (:

Raspberry Milk, Super nice! (:
P.S. And the food @Northpoint (Food court though) looks delicious, shall go back there someday!

Bow-tie I got from Ms Toh (:

MELODY bookmark (:
got another one though, but wait till I've given her then I'll post (:

BABY BOOTIES (:
Serve as phone pouch though.

Pooh trying on my booties (:
Cute right!

Ok school tomorrow. And I'm still sick - mild cough& flu, with frequent headaches here and there. Ok will take care though so no worries. Too stress up; Hahahah, I don't know what I'm stress about. Ok I do, but not to say it out here. Some might know though.

&I seriously look forward to seeing you tomorrow <3

SiPei: What ai ai de dong xi?! I'm human can! &not dong xi. Well, you are evil. And that is why you got retribution! :P
Racer: Yup, kept in contact with her. Well, I think you last saw her in Sec 2 instead. She left after our Sec 2.
Alan: LOL thats to you only. Mine's Sengkang <3

2009-10-31T23:38:00.003+08:00

Went Ms Toh's place with Lingna, cause its Knotty Biscie 3rd anniversary!
Congrats Ms Toh! (:

Nice seeing her again, though I just saw her about last week? Bought some stuffs there, and its really cute! Shan't and can't say what it is, but will upload the pictures once I've given the stuff to someone (:

Headed to Northpoint for a drink. Wanted to rush back for something but since I won't be in time so both of us decided to shop a little before we leave. Got some inner wear with Lingna; LOL its the first time I'm getting this with someone (excluding Mum and Sis).

Bus back and it was raining heavily. Got no choice but to ran home, in the rain -.- And it was freezing cold! My palms were freezing and I was shivering by the time I reach home. &we nearly bang towards the metal handle, or whatever you call it. Super hilarious! Nearly slipped while running home though.

Argh! Have been disliking rainy days since my umbrella was gone! ):

Just hoping not to get fever after being in the rain, cause I always do -.-

Xueshen: Okla, I also never been to alot of places. We're both pathetic.
Alan: HUH?! Why bedok?

2009-10-31T00:09:00.003+08:00

Ok its the end of the week again but will be a short one though. Collected my Lollipop Pictorial book, and went ION. Hahahah, never been there. Making me worst than tourist I suppose. Walked around and back to Compass for dinner. Subway! Yes, again. LOL. And home. &Mum called me asking what time I'll be back when I alight from the bus, so got dinner for her anyway. She's pathetic, no dinner when she came back. Ok Dad Sis and cousin going Malacca tomorrow, Grandma and Aunt going wedding dinner and Mum gonna work. So yup, I'll be out to Ms Toh's house! (:

Thanks for the massage! (:

Mark: Alright :D
SiPei: You super evil cannn!
Alan: LOL.
Racer: Yup, thanks uh. Not rushing yet though.
Xueshen: Thanks darling! You take care too alright! (:

2009-10-26T23:30:00.002+08:00

I'm having aches ):
Left arm and my right shoulder. And I have problem straightening my left arm, not to mention stretching it.

Ok I think I shall stop complaining. No point in fact.
My second project commence today, which is bad. And the thing is, more projects are coming in this week ):

&thank you so much, -for your words and all.

2009-10-25T23:58:00.002+08:00

Ok work today, 10+ hours. As a flyer distributor this time round. Now I know the hardship of a flyer distributor. Seriously its not as easy. And from now, I'll try to take any brochures given to me when I'm out, since I've experienced their hardship.

My left arm was, or rather is, aching; and my wrist was so stiff that it aches. And after dinner, I admit I faked my smile. Well my cheeks were stiff from smiling already :P *Thanks for massaging my wrist! (:

&Had my YAMI YOGURT after work! (: Cause I saw many people holding the yami yogurt cup and there was a sudden crave for it. And I suppose some people saw through my crave :P Ok not totally though. Anyway Thanks Joshua! (:

AHHH. I can't post my YAMI YOGURT picture ):

Saw many people today. My uncle, Mr Chan and his family (PHSS), Ms Seet (PHSS), HuiTing (PHSS), Amanda Ng (TP) and godbro (ShaoXi)! LOL, this is random but its been so long since I last saw godbro! Miss him so much! And I couldn't even recognise him, LOL. Taller and Slimmer, but still as handsome, Hahahah :D

&my flu's not recovered yetttt :X
&now I'm super broke ):

Finally, Happy Birthday to Chin Hui dearie! (:

Racer: Yup I will, thanks.
Mark: LOL, see how.
Nic: Thanks uh. Um must be fast, my first project came in already!
Vinni: Sure dearie, take care too yups :D
Amanda.salvo: Sure! Take care too :D

2009-10-22T22:35:00.002+08:00

Ok I'm currently very sick now, in fact not really that bad la. Flu Cough and Sore Throat. But I suppose my sore throat is recovering already. Cough is just a minor one, then I think flu should recover. Since I'm so gonna take medicine later on.

Projects not started yet then I'm sick already -.-

Good day today. Lessons were supposed to start at 2pm for me but I went to crash Micro and BCS so yup, 11am. But still good. How I wish lessons start at 11am everyday! I'll seriously love sch more :D

Socio was pretty fine, made friends, but the tutor was just a relief teacher. I like her though! Aw, it'll be good if she's my tutor! (:

Bus with Lingna Sipei and Andre (Surprise uh!) but it was damn funny. We had jokes about this and that and it was just plain crap, and ended up I became the joke of the day; what the -.- Bad friends I made in sch, HAHAHAH.

Dinner with Lingna and Andre and it was super funny. Many things which were like "secrets" were spilled unknowingly. HAHAHAH, had a great time laughing! (: Andre, every thursday like that uh! (:

Ok I think I should go take medicine and sleep soon. Or else I'll become a panda soon and will lay flat on the table tomorrow. LOL, ok I'm trying to be funny.

Been seeing Charmaine Choo (Salvo) like twice this week already! And Kelvin (Salvo) for twice straight in two days, yesterday and today, Hahahah.

&the weather is still super hot! Been losing lots of water, since I've been perspiring so much -.-

Xueshen: HAHAHAH yup and I saw you just now! (:
Nic: YupYup, lets go for YAMI YOGURT kk! Meet up soon! Before my projects start piling up :D
Mark: I see how kk. The thing is how to pass to you.
Karen: Yupyup, life's been good. How about you? Take care too! (:

2009-10-21T21:55:00.002+08:00

Ok gonna crash tomorrow's Micro in the morning with some, or rather most people. Then gonna crash BCS as well, and following by my Socio tut. Straight from 11 to 4, with no breaks in between. Hahahah, I hope I'll survive. Or rather I'll survive.

Went NYP after class to look for Joshua and Eleanor, and saw Geraldine and MichelleFok! Hahahah, that was a surprise though. Well been so long since I see them though! Hahahah, drop by TP to visit me! (:

And I really really cannot take the weather nowadays! So super hot ): And I seriously hate perspiring after I shower while walking out to the bus stop to sch. I want wind, no rain please! I've got no umbrella! ):

Ok shall be off. Been super shag these three days. So yupyup, its time to rest well. And I heard from Sis that they're going Malacca this Sat -.- I've got work on Sun morning and I can't go. Cause they'll be returning late. Awww. Ok never mind, forget it.

And now I just remembered that I've got to go get my Lollipop Pictorial book, and boom, my 70bucks will be gone. Awww, luckily all bills are paid and stuff. I just got to survive till the end of this month.

Nic: YES its super nice! Some time we go try together kk! (: I'm missing YAMI YOGURT already!
Mark: Hahahah, thats what you said and not me.

2009-10-20T22:55:00.003+08:00

Ok here to make a short post before I sleep (:
Had 6hours break after CommSk2, thought it would be a disaster but luckily it wasn't. Joshua came. So lunch with him, JingYing, YiMing, Clement and WeeTing. Went lounge till Lingna's lect ends and stayed in the lib till Socio starts.

Super shag. Super heavy bag + Laptop -.- Met Joshua to get books and came back. I guess I was half dead when I reach home.

And now I'm having a splitting headache, Shit. With a super bad sore throat, it worsen compared to morning ):

Mark: LOL fine -.-
Lingna: Fine fine -.- You too, must save up!

2009-10-19T22:57:00.002+08:00

Ok first day of school. Same as normal but well, I realised that there's politics going on. LOL, not much affecting me though. At least my side is settled, yup! (:

Supposedly to dinner at Tampines but was too crowded so headed back to Compass. Super crowded 27, like again. Had Subway! (: Yes again, but well thats Melody, I just like it :D

Have 6hours break before my lecture for sociology starts for tomorrow. I just hope I won't die of boredom, LOL. But well will bring my lappy there though, just hoping I won't be lazy tomorrow morning.

Shall sleep soon, my eyelids are heavy -.- and lessons start at 9am tomorrow.

Xueshen: LOL. Lets meet for lunch next time! You text me luh! (:
Mark: A good and nice friend who's just broke.
Alan: LOL. Hahahah, its my latest picture of myself.

2009-10-18T22:50:00.004+08:00

Alright in another hour or so my holiday will end, marking the start of sem 1.2 (:

Its good, since I won't have anything to do even if holiday continues, and that also meant that I'll be wasting my time away. Ok probably except the short period when I was working for F1 and the events and stuffs. Since I've been wasting my time away before that, practically staying home for TV Food and Com daily.

Thinking back my 7weeks of holidays. I can only recall what has happened since F1. Let me think, F1 job, Movie (G-force), Catering for Resorts World Sentosa, Shopping, Collecting Pay, Shop for Lollipop stuffs, Went JK for breakfast, Lunch/Dinner outside, getting sick last minute (at the wrong time somemore!), sore and swollen ankle, and the endless housework every other day.
Did I miss out anything? I hope not.

Alright. This is the most happening holiday - bored yet busy. And frankly, the best of all. After all, I haven't had that much freedom compared to the past. Moreover, I've learnt and seen a lot this hols. A lot, I'm serious.

Thanks to those who played a part in making my holiday a wonderful one (:
&thank you for being there - for this holiday, especially last night.

Xueshen: Hahahah, thanks! (: Um, I could search from the system with your full name! (:
Nic: Well 100+bucks on A LOT of things okay -.- Clothes Bags and 2 meals of western food. What do you think? &Yami Yogurt is YUMMY! Try it, its really nice (:
Jasper: Well, I haven't been shopping. Moreover, I won't have the time to shop for the upcoming months. So yup, somehow its worth it (:
Alan: Yupyup! Home alone ): But why don't look at the window?

2009-10-17T23:12:00.002+08:00

Ok woke up super early, to bring grandma over to aunt's place. Lunch with grandma and aunt (i pay ok!) and bused back to Compass to meet Joshua, and back home.
&I'm sorry! Couldn't have lunch and dinner with you today! ):

So yup, paid for today's lunch, got concession, and tonight's dinner. There goes, my 90bucks. Aw, I'm seriously broke. Like very broke now! ):

Ok parents and sis went batam this morning, and will only be back tomorrow. Which means I'm all alone at home.

Like I've stayed home alone past midnight since morning when parents and sis goes to Malacca, but at most they'll be back by 3am. And now its the first time I'm staying home alone, overnight. Ok I know this sounds dumb and many would think "Hello you're 17+ and you're afraid of staying alone at home overnight?!" Yes I am afraid, well since this is the first time. Had the TV on since I'm home, cause I need sounds to distract my attention. Kept finding things to do like packing my stuffs and the newspapers out in the living room, well at least I've been busy the whole evening till around 10plus. Now that I'm alone in the room (ok my music is on), but still! )':

Alright I call this, other than afraid of being alone at home, its the quietness that I can even hear my own breathing that freaks me out. Like seriously.

Ok I know its dumb, but I just feel like ranting my fears.

Anyway decided not to go for lunch with my aunt since I doubt I'll be able to sleep that early tonight and will have a big problem waking up tomorrow. I guess I just "eat" the air and there goes my hunger.

Joshua: Yupyup, but the bleeding was because of the cab fare, not what I bought.
Racer: Of course I care about my money! Like duh. My hard-earned cash.
XueShen: Nope, different. I saw your timetable already!
Alan: YupYup! Lemme know your class for both if you manage to change alright! (:
Lingna: Yupyup, wait till I have money though (:
Audrey: Is it? What class?

2009-10-17T00:42:00.003+08:00

Went shopping with LingNa and seriously, I know the real meaning of splurging. Awww, my wallet hurts. One big hole now, a total of $153.95 gone in a day! And that meant that I've got to work for 26 hours before I can get my money back - provided the job pays 6bucks per hour ):

Bought one each - vest, small bucket bag, dress, boyf tee, haversack (for school though), hoodie top, watch, shorts, plain yellow top.
Together with lunch, dinner and yami yogurt. There goes my hard earned cash! ):

Ok at least I had my YAMI YOGURT! <3

Ok but at least I don't regret, until now. Unlike in the past where I regret buying something after two hours. So I'm seriously going to make those things useful and really use them often! (:

Seriously, Bugis Street is a super nice place to shop. Like seriously, and agreed by MELODY & LINGNA. You get cheap but nice clothes, nice food, pretty shoes too (esp heels)!
Saw this damn nice heels for $9.90 (tell me where can you get a nice pair of heels at $9.90!), but decided not to get it cause I wanted to get more of other stuffs and not shoes. So I'm seriously going back (when I have money) to get heels from Bugis!

But the money spent include the trip back home, by cab. Cause I was rushing for time, yet it took us almost an hour to get a cab -.- Should have spent the time train-ing home, and I could have saved much more! Moreover the meter of the cab jumps at a rate of $0.20 every 18seconds! Imagine how many 18s I need to reach home from Bugis! Each time it jumped, I felt that my heart bleeds. So yup, by the time I reached home, I need blood transfusion to survive! ):

And know whats the results behind too much shopping? Red arms! Due to the carrying of too many bags! LOL, but I'm serious. Refer to the picture below, and it was taken after 2hours I reached home. Imagine the weight of my shopping bags! :P

Ok kinda long post today, LOL.

Anyway, I got Sociology & Public Speaking for CDS! GoodGood (:
And one bad news, no one's in the same tut class as me for sociology, sian -.-

Racer: Nah, doctor says I'm fine.
Vinni: Thanks dear! Miss you too! (:
Mark: Nahhhh! I rather spend the money on myself (:
Nic: Whatever. But spending on you is worst, not even worth a single matter. :P

2009-10-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

Supposedly to go Sentosa with F1 workmates and guess what? I'm sick -.-

Down with slight fever and flu, with body aches here and there. Still took the train with Joshua though, since he was meeting Audrey and I'm going to the doctor.

Unlucky rightttt? ):
Ok but anyway I think I should be fine, like now? I don't know though. Awww ):

Anyway, went to deposit 400bucks. Like WOW, I forgot when was the last time I deposited such a big amount. Hahahah, thats before shopping though. Since I should be going shopping with Lingna on Fri if nothing goes wrong.

&Thanks to everyone who cared! *touched (:

Xueshen: Yup I supposed so. Think you better wear a wristband for support on your wrist, take care! (:
Racer: NOLA! I'm not even dead, why do I need life story.
SiPei: okok :D
Kelvin: WTH you're super evil ):
Mark: LOL.
Nic: LOL, why should I spend it on you. And 89.90 was on pictorial book plus towel and merchandise, not kiss card -.-
Alan: Nah not really all my pay, just a small part. Count as reward, but still manage to save the rest.

2009-10-13T23:33:00.002+08:00

Wanted to make it a picture post to see the changes in myself, but seems like I'm having a big probem with uploading pictures to blogger. Will do it soon, like really soon.

Got another pay today and the final one, until next work, that is coming on the 25th. Well, but at least for now I'm not like drained. And I saw Kelvin from Salvo, with a girl. Walked so near and he didn't see me -.- Think he's blind, somehow :P

Went Toa Payoh to get my Lollipop Kiss Card, as well as to reserved the autographed pictorial book which I saw it there? Left a deposit of 20bucks and that book costs $89.90! There goes one day of work, plus a little more. Ok since the price of the book is around 40 to 50 bucks, moreover there is the towel, and other merchandise. Worth it? I don't know.

Well anyway anyway, a really big thank you to Joshua for accompanying me over to places and places. Thank you X infinity! (:

Clement: HELLO :D
Mark: HUH? What you talking about?
Racer: Yupyup, but I'm fine now, in fact :D
XueShen: OMG how come? Cause of the trays is it? Take care too darling!

2009-10-11T23:59:00.002+08:00

My left ankle hurts like mad and I still walked over to get dinner just now, gonna visit grandpa in the morning (if mum decides to go) and getting F1 pay tomorrow, and getting sat's pay on Tue.

Have sprained my ankle so many times but yet this is the first time my ankle's swollen, not due to sprain though. Was painful during F1 but I didn't really bother since I spent most of the time at home and it wasn't painful. And the pain came back on Fri during work in fact, and it worsen on Sat since I was bearing with the pain and didn't really rub it properly for past two nights. So I ended up with a swollen ankle today -.-

Now it hurts when anything comes in contact with my ankle, and it even hurted when I was walking over to Koufu just now, or rather, I was limbing there, after walking for five minutes?

Well but anyway, I enjoyed working despite the injury and the tiredness. Workaholic? I don't know.

Now I don't feel the strongness (is there such a word?) in me. I wished I was still the superwoman when I was in PHSS library; with no feelings/mood and always with a strong front. Alright, I'm just being random, with certain thoughts when I reflected on myself for the past two weeks.

Nic: LOL, hump what? Act cute uh. :P

2009-10-08T21:26:00.002+08:00

Shall post now since I've got nothing to do, and moreover will most probably not be posting next two days. Supposedly to collect my F1 pay tomorrow but I'll be working! So ended up I can only collect it on Monday -.-

Sometimes I wonder if things will still turn out this way of some people/things doesn't exist.
如果能再来一次，一定不会像现在一样。有自己的生活，能有自己的主见，或许就不用跑得那么辛苦了。因为从小被看不起，被忽略，所以立志要离开，拥有自己的事业，自己的生活，即使永远一个人也没关系。而为了自己所想要的将来，就洴了命地跑，比其他人快，比其他人勤奋。从来没有半句怨言，没叫过辛苦，眼泪也往肚子里吞，但后来呢？但仍然还是会继续相信，老天一定会报答曾经努力的人，所以继续期待未来，继续努力地奔跑吧!

最近, 我好像迷失了自我, 现在, 我找到了旋转时的定点, 继续奔跑. (:

Determination. MELODY SIM, you better not forget what you actually want!
Alright, this post, in fact, serves as a reminder for myself :D

Joshua: Nah you're nice too (:
Racer: Nope, that is my only wristband. Go buy one if you need.
Nic: LOL. Who's blood is purple? -.-
Mark: LOL, your nic uh.

2009-10-07T18:54:00.003+08:00

Gave away something valuable, or rather, memorable, cause someone's wrist is injured. And it has been with me since Pri 5, and yup, 6years if you count. Ok, its really long. Yup, and that is my wristband! (:

Alright :D I know the colour came off and whatever not. But at least it went through hardships with me. LOL, ok not. But at least it protected my wrist when I injured my wrist joint few months back. See, precious rightttt! (:

Ok, I think I shall dedicate this post to my wristband and not add anything else. And I think I should get one more before my old injury hurts. To the new owner, take good care of it alright! &of course, your wrist especially! (:

Alan: YALA thats why right. I won't mind to even start school at 8am if I take only 10mins to reach.
Joshua: Yaya, you're nice. Happy? LOL.

2009-10-05T23:18:00.004+08:00

Alright school gonna start in two weeks time and its really bad. This meant that I've got to wake up early in the morning to "fight" for the toilet, squeeze on the bus and travel for an hour or so, having lectures early in the morning that make me doze off and ending school late due to project meetings, finally mugging during weekends and spending all my time at home.

That is my life after two weeks. Pathetic. But at least now I'm more used to poly life and I think I know what I can do to improve my grades. Ok I just hope my timetable's will be better compared to last sem, not all classes starting at 9am please!

Gonna go JK for breakfast with Lingna tomorrow, been so long since I went there! Miss JK trail times! Too bad there isn't much pictures taken during JK trails. Or probably I should search my thumbdrives one day and maybe I'll discover some of our group photos!

Alright and I've decided to sleep earlier from now on. My skin condition is getting bad and pimples are popping out ):

&NicholasOngJH. What did you tag on Mark's tagboard uh?! Wanna die is it? Seriously I'm gonna change that skin of yours the next time I see you. You better run when you see me. ANDANDAND, when you wanna meet? Always drag one lea, for lunch la!

XW: Yupyup! Made me so bored the other day! ):
Alan: Hahahah, now then you know? I post this type of sentence very often :P
Mark: Hey what you trying to say uh?!?!

2009-10-04T00:34:00.003+08:00

Ok now youtube's down and thats why I'm stuck only here, blogging -.- In fact there's nothing much to post.

Went out this morning to meet aunt to pay respect to my grandpa. Imagine travelling from Sengkang to Tampines then to Paya Lebar and back to Sengkang. So yup, ended up sleeping for five hours and only had my lunch cum dinner at 10pm. Great day right. Ok, at the very least I recovered my sleep.

And seriously till now my eyes still hurts due to morning's smoke at temple. Like aw, I've washed my eyes many times and I find it useless. And ya, I think I'm down with flu, like again.

And now I shall end this post with a pretty picture of myself,

Nic: WTH you wanna die is it?! I think I'll change yours first.
Racer: No its not good.
Alan: Yea true true. (:
Kelvin: Nono, is slap you then got li liang (:
Karen: Yup, don't worry! I'm pretty fine (:

2009-10-02T19:15:00.003+08:00

Did chores and clear the useless stuffs in my thumbdrive. Washing, Ironing and I think the best is that I boiled green bean soup. Ok not something big but well I don't cook usually. Fine at least I wasn't that bored today. And there are some things I'm gonna do next week, in fact from next week onwards.

And now I'm not sure if I should get a part time job. Aw.

Ok. Some things happened in between but I remembered my Superwoman spirit. Yes I'm not defeated so I shan't think of the unhappy stuffs. Moreover since young, the dream I held on to will remain unchanged. Yes until now and it will be in the future. Since that is the reason behind my Superwoman spirit (:

化悲愤为力量 (:
Yea I will

Racer: Yea its nice, thats why I enjoyed it isn't it -.- Um, good to be young but bad to be kiddy.
Alan: WTH. You're evil. Then why you never wish me? LOL.

2009-10-01T23:01:00.004+08:00

After working for four days @ F1, I can't take it when I have all the time in the world and stay home. Just like today. It is really bored -.-

Ok, back to yesterday. Caught G-force and I seriously enjoyed it. Like suddenly I enjoy movies. Many know I'm not the kind who goes for movies and would rather watch either from net or tv, since its just a show. But I think I changed my thinking suddenly, LOL.

&I feel like going shopping, yet I've got no money now ): Wait till I get my pay from F1, and I'm gonna get myself a bagpack (:

Ok, got to iron the clothes tomorrow, and probably its time to do some mopping. Aw, entertain me. I'm extremely bored, like right now.

And yea, Chris Cheong text me just to wished me Happy Children's Day -.-

you just make me smile (:

XW: Good and bad actually. When you work long term, you feel like resting and think studying is better. When it comes to rushing of projects, you'll think working is so much better.
YanChin: Yea, its really fun despite tiring :D
Clement: Yup (:
Jasper: Yes, I like it too (: LOL.

2009-09-28T23:56:00.001+08:00

Work was awesome! (:

Despite being tired and the constant complains of sore feets, I, or rather we (the whole team), pulled through the tiring working days. Mine ended yesterday while some others ended today. It was really a great learning experience and I made awesome friends! Both NYP and TP :D

&the time slot given was wrong. Instead of 6pm to 2am, it became 4pm to 12am. But still. Work ended about one hour later day by day. And by yesterday, it was 4.20am when I reached home. Thursday till about 12plus, Friday till 1plus, Saturday till 2, and Sunday till 3plus or 4. Have been cabbing back everyday though.

In fact, I left early last night and the bar was still working. Was supposed to closed at 11pm but at 12plus it was said that there won't be closing time until the last guest leave -.- Had a little celebration, at the back though. Had a little champagne, and I think I seriously dislike alcoholic drinks, at least for now. Was my first time drinking, and I don't like the feeling of having gas in my stomach and the hot feeling after drinking.

& BIG Thanks Joshua for sending me back! Slept immediately after showering last night and the last time I saw the time was 4.58am; so I didn't even rub my feet and its still sore today -.- Will be rubbing it later on and hope it will recover tomorrow.

Now that I'm sitting in front of the laptop with the quiet environment, I suddenly miss the sounds of the racing cars and the laughters within the team after work (:

P.S. People at other places like esplanade were damn slack and Paddock Club was the worst since it was the busiest. But after all, I'd rather be busy than bored.

XueWei: Hahahah, Thanks for the concern. But the thing is every night timings were after 1am when we left the club and the route to the gates were arond 20 to 30 mins. But it was awesome though! Tired but happy :D
YanChin: Read the post! You'll know how great it was despite being busy.
Racer: Didn't manage to take pictures of the place since my phone was with my friend during work time. &ya, I believe in that can already.
Nic: Yup! It was awesome. Someday I tell you more kk.
WeiFeng: Same to you bro :D

2009-09-23T23:51:00.002+08:00

I'm back but I promise I'll sleep by 1230pm. Reason being, there's work tomorrow! -.- Yup, F1 Grand Prix. Will be at Paddock Club, which is good (that is what I heard). Ok, at least I don't have to be under the sun during day time.

Work schedule as follows:
2pm to 10pm tomorrow;
6pm to 2am on Friday;
2pm to 10pm on Saturday;
2pm to 10pm on Sunday.

Not sure how will it be like though its not my first time doing waitressing, but somehow I just get nervous and scared when I have to adapt to something/somewhere new. I know there will bound to have changes in life and especially in this line but still, I'm still me. Ok I'm drifting away from it but anyway I'm just scared and not knowing what might happen tomorrow.

Alan: I know. But frankly, I somehow believe in that already :P
YanChen: Ok sure and thank you! (: Yea I have been resting since the start of hols :D Which is good actually. Hahahah, you too! Hope you'll score well too! (:
Mark: (:
Racer: I know but I've believed in it. To me, its better to believe in that.

2009-09-23T17:02:00.002+08:00

Went PS yesterday after collecting F1 uniform; and it was great seeing them. Ok I'm referring to my ex colleages. Shopped; but not totally though since it was just getting my shoes and skirt for the upcoming F1 job. Yup and mum doesn't want to sponsor so I'm seriously broke. So I guess I might as well get a freelance/temporary part time job? But the thing is I feel like spending my holiday in my own way. Ahhh! I don't know. Shall see how.

Got to collect my skirts later on. Be back at night. (:

2009-09-22T02:15:00.005+08:00

Login to friendster after alien months or year? Hahahah.

Woke up only at 5.30pm and it was good, really good. Dinner TV and now com. That is my Monday. Imagine I lead this kind of life everyday; That is taitai life know! (:

Trip was fun and enjoyed the great food that I have been missing it for months! But I think its time to go on diet now -.-

Ok shall stop dreaming. Posted this on facebook, "A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterards." Read it from Clement's note on fb actually, but I agree to it totally. 或许是因为所经历过的伤痛，而因此相信。But yea, whatever. I just agree, Hahahah (: So sorry guys!

Will be going to collect uniform for work tomorrow and working from Thursday to Sunday for F1. Then gonna get shoes at ps. Will get to see ex-colleages & people from sweeties! (: Finally will be seeing them after about two months? :D

Oka I gotta continue youtubing :D Love wangzi <3 Not watching something regarding wangzi though. Hahahah, random.

Sometimes its really sweet to read a text by someone who cares. I'm serious.
Yet the fact is that I don't think I should indulge in sweetness anymore, because you deserve better.

Alan: Wa so evil. But I thought its 7? 7 subjects know.
ShuHui: Oh no wonder. I see "tagboard" but never seen the tagboard itself.
ChoonSze: Thanks :D
Kelvin: WTh so evil. &please, she got no reason to stalk you but you have because you always love stalking people.
Clement: LOL. Cheer up la, you're smart k.
Racer: Yea pretty relaxing. Good one though.
Amanda: Thanks :D

2009-09-19T00:24:00.001+08:00

Will be leaving in three hours time;
be back on Sunday night :D

2009-09-17T23:09:00.002+08:00

Wanted to post pictures (of myself) but just realised that I've not been taking pictures for such a long time! Ok I promise I'm gonna take pictures from now on, especially during the Malacca trip this weekend.

Yup, before I drift to other matters, I'm going on holiday! Like finally! (: Just to Malacca, one weekend though. But haven't been going there since last Nov. Miss the food there!

Finally one thing is down today. Yet tomorow got to wake up early to bring grandma back to Chinatown since there won't be anyone at home this weekend. Aw I suppose I seriously need a break. Hahahah, I don't know what I'm talking about now.

&I just realised my feet hurts now, since evening. Yet I don't know the reason :X Because I didn't fall and no one step on me. HOW?! Its painful every step I take ): Gonna rub some cream later and hope it will be alright tomorrow.

And lastly, I have promised someone to keep on with the superwoman spirit and yes, I will. Bang me with anything, I'll stay strong :D

I smiled at the sight of those sweet messages; because,
sometime I just wonder if I am worth it, because you're so perfect that I didn't realise I'm the one.

Racer: Yup, I will stay on like this :D
ShuHui: Hello :D Thanks. Seldom see you around though. Hahahah, &your blog doesn't have tagboard right?
Kelvin: You don't know how to console people then don't comment so much la. &I seriously think you stalk ShuHui okay.
Alan: LOL. Like that only?
Amanda: Yup I will, when I'm free though. Have been busy and will be in the coming weeks.
Ange: Thanks my dear, I will. Same to you okay! Melody is always there! Love you too <3
Jasper: Is it? I thought the Melody you knew in the past was a timid girl who doesn't speak much? Hahahah, I will :D &Thanks for that. Left you a message on twitter though :D

2009-09-14T18:30:00.000+08:00

Ok I'm back, after ~~one two three~~ four days. Have been settling my mood and mind these days and yes, I'm fine now. My fighting spirit, as well as superwoman spirit is back :D

And I swear I'm gonna strive to the maximum from this minute, so will most probably be disappearing again. Don't miss me :P

And I've been spending my days meaningfully. Other than doing some reading up, housework and compensating my sleeping hours, have been giving tuition (not earning any cash though), because its my sis -.- Well at least I found out that I can be a good teacher since I found out that I can give good explanation(in both English and Chinese).

Alan: (: &you've not tagged for so long!
Vinni: Thanks dear! :D
Racer: A real one because I was teaching my sis maths.
Nic: Yes please, if you read my offline message. But anyway, probably wait till you're on hols/when you're free.
LingNa: yea, have told you anyway.
Mark: Thank you! :D

2009-09-10T18:22:00.002+08:00

I am lost inside my sem results.
Unfair, Disappointed, Angry, Sadness.
Probably I ain't smart since the beginning,
I find myself such a failure.

Leave me alone.